New PFS member onboard

Hey all the suffer mates,

Im Andras, new to this so much unfortunate “club”.

This is only my first week in PFS, I know that for most of you might find it unserious at this stage.
But after reading many of your conversations I was eager to join and introduce myself, my sympthoms and my mental attitude at this point, because i’m pretty sure, I will keep having this horrible syndrome for a while.

Being 33 years old, I’m well trained, regular workout guy, I have a very promising company since 9 months building a great future for my potential family, and I was always was the king for the sweetest chicks. My luck is that I’m single as I get this change in my life.

I’ve taken fin for only 4 days, at the 4th day during sleep, I felt that alarming pain down there. I stopped takin that f-ckin poison there, but as of I lost any contact with my best piece down there, and developed with skin burning on the face and mild headache I knew i have PFS. My heart is running much higher than normally. Pain is relatively mild down there sometimes, but disturbing. Googling and reading your conversations, i’m pretty sure I’m one of the “chosen fin victims”.
I suffer insomnia since almost a week, with sleeps of 3-4 hours / day at the most. It’s like my brain is burning constantly, causing me keep awake. I blame my fight facing the first days of my new life for not being able to sleep.
After reading the most of many of your physical, mental challenges which are likely ahead of me too, I pretty much brace myself for the worst.

BUT here’s how I start this long war against my own, autoimmune-like new system:

  1. I made a priority list for my life, what will keep me positive (friends, family, things that really entertained you always, for me such is my company too - except sex and porn of course lol - etc) I’ll keep focusing on interests as I had before.
  2. Trust in my body. Your body CAN heal if you think positive, major agressor to your body’s recovery is scepticism, I know its hard when you see yourself in the mirror becoming a wreckage, but never forget that becoming upset about it will make it harder to recover.
  3. I inform everybody around me about what happened, and will probably happen to me. I will continue to hang out with friends and family, even planning trips now lol.
  4. No woman, no cry :smiley:

It will take time to wake up being free of the fog I’m sure, but also I know that it will happen. I’m able to smile now sometimes when I have conversations with friends etc. even at the time I tell them my miserable path for the next years.

I’ll keep you guys updated how I manage the probably hardest upcoming days, months and years in my life. I’m totally optimistic.
Happy to hear your stories of your first days of fin sides. Cheers!

[x ] Loss of Libido / Sex Drive
[ x] Erectile Dysfunction
[x ] Complete Impotence
[x ] Loss of Morning Erections
[x ] Loss of Spontaneous Erections
[ x] Loss of Nocturnal Erections
Watery Ejaculate
Reduced Ejaculate
[x ] Inability or Difficulty to Ejaculate / Orgasm
Reduced Sperm Count / Motility

[x ] Emotional Blunting / Emotionally Flat
Difficulty Focusing / Concentrating
Memory Loss / Forgetfulness
Stumbling over Words / Losing Train of Thought
Slurring of Speech
Lack of Motivation / Feeling Passive / Complacency
Extreme Anxiety / Panic Attacks
Severe Depression / Melancholy
Suicidal Thoughts

[x ] Penile Tissue Changes (narrowing, shrinkage, wrinkled)
Penis curvature / rotation on axis
[ x] Testicular Pain
[ x] Testicular Shrinkage / Loss of Fullness
[x ] Genital numbness / sensitivity decrease
Weight Gain
Gynecomastia (male breasts)
Muscle Wastage
Muscle Weakness
Joint Pain
Dry / Dark Circles under eyes

[ x] Prostate pain
[ x] Persistent Fatigue / Exhaustion
Stomach Pains / Digestion Problems
Constipation / “Poo Pellets”
Vision - Acuity Decrease / Blurriness
Tinnitus (ringing or high pitched sound in ears)
Hearing loss
Increased hair loss
Frequent urination
Lowered body temperature

[ x] Other (please explain)
burning head.