How many of you experience emotional blunting and/or anhedonia?
Anhedonia, meaning inability to feel joy or pleasure. Emotional blunting, meaning inability to feel either positive or negative emotions to a strong degree. Lack of ability to cry or feel affection toward friends, family, or lovers falls under this umbrella. This has also been described as an inability to enjoy a scenic view, nice weather, or art and music.
This was a topic that I feel should be revived since it is something often discussed in the past that has fallen by the wayside:
This is also a commonly described symptom among PFS, PSSD, and PAS patients. It was recently mentioned as a “unique form of torture” by a PSSD patient. So true.
I also experience emotional flatness and anhedonia to a severe degree. It has probably had more of a negative impact on my life than the sexual symptoms.
It’s as if all that was left on top of a blank personality is anxiety, anger, stress, frustration, and existential horror. This has been a feeling of being uncomfortably stuck in my own body and mind for the past 20 years. Only a few crumbs of normalcy kept me going.
Strong feelings of joy, interest, affection, lust, romance, exhilaration, pleasure, and comfort are gone… Music certainly doesn’t have the same effect of evoking an emotional response. Hobbies are no longer enjoyable and I feel as if socializing without a clear objective is a chore and burden. I have been able to hold a few long-term relationships but found myself lacking the drive to be attentive, caring, compassionate, or passionate, that I have seen in most other couples. This probably had far more influence on ending relationships than sexual symptoms did. I didn’t have the best upbringing, but still felt love for my parents, until suddenly realizing I was unable to after the worst of PAS set-in. I was also very close with my grandparents and found myself unable to cry at their funerals. I have feared ever having a child because of this void, even before learning about this condition.
This symptom is certainly inhumane. Can anyone else describe their experience in dealing with this?