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#144

Really glad you’re feeling better.


#145

05.10.2018
day 53
weight: ?

slept for a few minutes in the afternoon.
still bad anxiety.
still shitty skin.

Mental
tinnitus: 1
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 8
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 5
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 9
loss of personality: 9
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 3
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin & other skin disorders: 10 (proceeds)
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0


#146

06.10.2018
day 54
weight: ?

i had not noticed until now, but the stiffness of the left leg seems better…
today, for 30 minutes, i suffered a little of suicidal ideation. then went away…

Mental
tinnitus: 1
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 2
depression: 0
anxiety: 8
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 9
loss of personality: 9
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 2
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0


#147

07.10.2018
day 55
weight: 63.5

Mental
tinnitus: 1
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 4
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 9
loss of personality: 9
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 4
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0


#148

08.10.2018
day 55
weight: ?

Mental
tinnitus: 1
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 8
social phobia: 4
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 9
loss of personality: 9
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 7
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 4
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0


#149

I read through the previous posts, thanks for the update. Im glad you’re able to get some short bits of sleep.


#150

09.10.2018
day 56
weight: ?

tomorrow morning i’ll call the doctor, then we will decide how to proceed.
this morning, after i woke up, i was able to sleep again. by the way, this natural sleep feels strange, is almost nightmarish.
i’m really concerned about my skin. if this issue won’t be fixed… i don’t know. i don’t want to live in this skin.

Mental
tinnitus: 1
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 7
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 9
loss of personality: 9
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 6
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0


#151

ok, today i talked to the doctor.
for 10 days, on alternate days, i’ll have no breakfast.
plus, i have to workout before dinner. to get more energy before workouts, he prescribed me to eat apples, carrots and fennels (i hate fennels).
i can add seeds to my salads but only if aren’t toasted. same for nuts and walnuts.


#152

Carrots are 5AR inhibitors. Also nuts.


#153

everything, in a certain percentage, is 5ar. i don’t think we should be phobic over foods.


#154

10.10.2018
day 57
weight: ?

Mental
tinnitus: 2
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 7
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 8
loss of personality: 9
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 7
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 4
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0

No br.


#155

11.10.2018
day 58
weight: ?

Mental
tinnitus: 2
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 8
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 7
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0


#156

12.10.2018
day 59
weight: 63.8

today i feel more brilliant, more present, more connected to reality.
i was on a square, petting a dog and i felt it, i felt reality more than before: the warmness of the sun, the roasted chestnuts smell in the air, dog’s hairs…
plus, i noticed that i’m more prone to allergies, immune reactions… when i work with my computer, now for example, my scalp becomes itchy…

i conclude that we all suffer from the same issue: modernity.

Mental
tinnitus: 2
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 4
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 7
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 8

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 7
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0


#157

13.10.2018
day 60
weight: ?

Mental
tinnitus: 1
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 4
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 7
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 7
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0

No br.


#158

14.10.2018
day 61
weight: 62.8

Mental
tinnitus: 1
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 6
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 7
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 7
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0

HB


#159

15.10.2018
day 62
weight: 62.7

very bad anxiety today. yesterday, before sleeping, i put topical hydrocortisone to treat my dermatitis: is there a link? what the hell is going on? why do i have these terrible days right when i think that things are improving?
even my skin is drier…
:’(

Mental
tinnitus: 1
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 9
social phobia: 6
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 7
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 6
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 10
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0

No br.


#160

16.10.2018
day 63
weight: ?

two days after the hydrocortisone, my anxiety is better… i guess this is linked with the adrenals… i felt this way when i was on cortisone…

Mental
tinnitus: 2
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 7
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 7
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 3
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 10
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0

L


#161

17.10.2018
day 64
weight: ?

the dermatologist says that hydrocortisone butyrate has not a systemic absorption. should i trust him?

Mental
tinnitus: 2
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 7
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 7
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 2
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 10
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0

No br.


#162

18.10.2018
day 65
weight: ?

another thursday in which i feel almost good… i wonder if this is because i used the hydrocortisone on sunday…

Mental
tinnitus: 2
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 0
depression: 0
anxiety: 7
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 6
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 7
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 6
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 3
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 10
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0


#163

19.10.2018
day 66
weight: 63

this was a no breakfast day. i wonder why i feel worse on these days…

Mental
tinnitus: 2
tinnitus button: 3
suicidal ideation: 1
depression: 2
anxiety: 6
social phobia: 5
insomnia: 9
memory loss: 5
stumbling over words: 0
slurring of speech: 0
laziness/lack of motivation: 8
loss of personality: 7
cod: ?
disconnection feeling: 9

Physical
stiffness of the left leg: 5
tremors: 0
groin: 0
poop: 3
lipoatrophy: 10 (proceeds)
wrinkles: 10 (proceeds)
graying hairs: 10 (proceeds)
dry skin: 9
fatigue: 0
joint pain: 0
poop pellets: 0
flu-like symptoms: 0

L
No Br.