Being stable for about 3 months now. I am still not sure whether my current state is better or worse than my pre-pfs state. I have a great deal of libido and sexual capicity now. But before pfs I had definitely more mental libido. I dont wanna get into details, but I got horny in the past my sensitivty to disgust went down, and I had some weird kinks. But I masturbate several times per day now, because Iam so horny. Its really odd.
I declare now that Iam cured from an subjective standpoint that means I can no longer claim that pfs is affecting my health or my life in any way. Maybe I still have some symptoms here and there that I got accustomed to, and I simply forgot how specific things were pre pfsā¦ Disrupting sleep patterns could be one of them, but occured before pfs too. But from now on, I cant tell the difference for sure, thats why I assume Iam cured.
Holy shit that was a ride man. I cant even describe how this experience felt like. Sometimes I just wanted to end it, because the suffering was unbearable. The first two months after my crash I was pretty much an eunuch. I felt absolutely nothing towards women sexually and the first weeks I couldnt even masturbate because my dick turned into some weird shaped baby dick that wouldnt get hard. I had a friend who often bragged about the women he fucked, and I would sitting there at home unable to fuck one even if I wanted to. But I just got used to it and continue to living my life, I think most humans can really withstand some hard shit in life. Supplements kind of helped me because they got me temporarily better, this did more to my mental health I quess because of hope. I havent told anyone about me having this disease, not even my psycho therapist. I was too ashamed.
I wish you all the best. Never give up.