I keep crashing. Can hardly get out of bed these days feel so beaten down.
My memory and brain is like someone with dementia. Everything is a fog. I scroll my phone all day in bed. Digestion is shutting down big time. I used to take giant hearty poops if i ate certain foods now it’s like rocks squeezing through a hose the past few weeks. I feel awful.
But most of all right now I’m lonely. I need a woman bad. But feel I’m so far gone in every way it won’t happen again. Even when I was bad years ago I had some girls who wanted to date me but now its like any sexual attraction I had has vaporized. Women don’t view me that way. I don’t view myself that way. I crash bad now when I cum. I just leave my dick alone or masturbate a bit but never finish. It doesn’t feel that good anyway when u can actually get an erection.
How will i ever date again?
Hey im on disability have no money no job cant eat anything will be bed bound if we have sex my memoery and mind are terrible my skin is turning to mush and I’m in a constant state of existential crisis and suicidal ideation. What about you?
Fuck .
I know this pails in comparison to my actual physical symptoms but it’s been really weighing on me lately. Anyway ya still fighting for some reason. Don’t know what to do next.
Maybe I’ll try eating just meat and black beans and see what happens
Idk