P. Roy Vagelos - Merck - MSD Chairman under his leadership inspired from the mechanism of the torture of poor hermaphrodites the drugs proscar and propecia have been developed. Nowing from animal and Human clinical trails that some dogs and mens potence are destroyed. He is 93 now, still alive. He could live a good life with 256 Finasteride associated suicides.
I have been stupid thinking about a doctor helping me, informing me, the half good in white, but I should had better remembered to other ones like Dr. Mengele, giving a shit to the health of their victims.
I never thought about lifelong destruction when he gave me the Finasteride muster packages from the pharma salesman I met leaving his room. My death penalty. Nothing as a fucking stupid coincidence. Half an hour before, he never would have offered me the shit. It has been much to early for the murder medication.
And I was so stupid. Why I didn’t deny to take it with me after I already denied because if sexual activity and he said then better not. To connect it with a relationship. And after quitting just starting to take the poison instead of making an internet check up. I make a big internet check up for asbestos in every house I once wanted to buy or nano titanium dioxide in every sunscreen. And than I throat an euthanasia drug with a gaslighting leaflat. No clear statement to the long time persistent side effects. Only ED can hold on after quitting. I thought a two weeks period. I thought about ED lasting for years they had to inform about
After only six weeks I crashed in a romantic situation. What dear FDA or other agencies is more disheartening for a man as loosing his manhood. And that’s not all. From the crash on I lost all my muscles, my intact brain and my ability for basic things have been damaged.
Than they told me it is a depression. Look at the pictures!!! This is not a depression. A depression never destroies a man in 17 months like that.
I have had depressions. After a year as a farmer with 25 goats I was fit like never before in my life .
I lived a funny life for 59 years. Even on early retirement because of borderline personality I lived a funny life with outdoor activities every day. Winter with Nordic Walking, spring and autumn with wonderful bicycle hikes and the Sumner in our little lido at the lake. Often like a lonely Wulf, sometimes in a relationship, sometimes with friends and the weekend with my child .
Now every day is a torture. I have been a super healthy 59 yo best ager. Now I m a living wrack like a sick 90 man. Lacking all of my activities I feel lonely with my total damaged brain chemistry tortured by anhedonic and deep deep black thoughts full of regret and hate.
If I once commit suicide I destroy the lives of my child and her mother too. If once ones rage reaches the guilty I hope there is no mercy!