i can barely even write this so heres some bullet points about my current state
intense derealization. i cant even describe. im like an alien to this earth. the way my brain processes the world around me is so out of whack i can barely handle it
no emotions except anger and fear
no libido
weak orgasms
couldnt care less about my dick
i no longer produce body odor
i dont sweat
weak body
worst of all is my inability to connect on any level with anyone i know. i cant think. no inner monolouge. nothing to say. except for how horrible i feel. my life is just a void. im losing my faculties and im only 34. i feel like i have brain damage
tried so many many things but my body cant tolerate anything i put in it without it flaring up my hppd like symptoms
i avoid chicks now. i dont know what to say to them. im just so damaged
near the end of the rope here god fucking please help me