The more I study this problem the more I think this is a neurological problem, not really an endocrinological problem. I have read that Dopamine is the source of desire and motivation in the brain. If dopamine is low, you are going to have low or no desire, love or motivation. It’s a precursor to norepinephrine and epinephrine and has an impact on hormone balance. If dopamine is low then, your hormone profile can be thrown completely out of whack too. I’ve played with hormone levels and have never gotten decent results and I believe that it’s because neurotransmitter impact hormone levels and not the other way around. I want to try to work on all of the main 4 neurotransmitter levels together. People who try 5htp (the precursor to Serotonin) have not really had any luck because that’s just going to throw things even more off balance. You need a balanced approach.
I decided to see a neurotransmitter specialist for help.
I came in and sat down and explained the situation to him. You guys know the story, I told him I don’t feel the sensations or emotions and feel like I am biochemically unable to. I have no desire, love or motivation, emotion, no sexual function, no libido, and am not able to recover no matter what endocrinologist do with my hormone levels. I also told him I have all kind of trouble thinking, concentrating and remembering things. The last few years of my life have been a complete waste. I don’t know who I am anymore because I’ve been anhedonic for so many years.
It could have been any one of us describing our situation. The doctor looked at me and said “You are a classic case of someone who has a neurotransmitter problem. Your neurotransmitters are fucked up”
I have been taking a balance of amino acids and I’m sure that in an extreme case like mine, it will take 2-3 months rather than a few weeks. There are basically 3 stages you go through and then the supplements are tweaked until the symptoms resolve. I was told that things don’t typically get better gradually, sometimes they improve all of a sudden. He seemed excited about helping me and urged me to stay with the therapy. I will report back to you guys when I see him again on the 16th.
The first 5 days I felt almost like the lights were flickering at times. Elimination of brain fog, better focus and concentration, night time erections returned for some nights. Sometimes I’ll be driving and feel a small wave of emotion and I’ll catch myself smiling in the rearview mirror. Then I’ll fall flat again and and get completely freaked out, and then I’ll feel a wave of euphoria come. Sexually I’m still a basket case, but I’m improving. I can’t wait to see how I’m doing a few weeks from now.