OK, I think you guys are probably bored of me now, but anyway.
I have recovered 95%. Libido is back now too. Things have really stabilised the last 2-3 weeks and I feel fantastic! I’m not doing or taking anything at the moment and feel no gradual decline or anything. As it is probably clear from my thread, in my case I just kept attacking the illness, with whatever I could that logic and reading told me would be the right thing, but always keeping to certain principles - nature does know best. In the end the odds were just so heavily stacked against PFS, it crumbled and gave up! I guess I should write a monster post telling you all the things I did over the past 2 years etc etc, but I’ll probably wait a bit more until I am 100%. I could probably get back to 100% within a week if I wanted, but actually the feeling of being completely normal (mentally, physically and sexually) is not something that i’m ready to commit to fully yet. It’s hard for me to explain this, but the best thing I could say is that all that nervous, edgy, excess energy is quite hard to control actually. So, i’m biding my time with stepping into full normality. Hard to explain this one… but imagine going from being completely flat etc. etc. to wanting to do EVERYTHING, including shagging. It’s quite powerful, and as much as what happened in the beginning was completely life changing, so is this in a sense, so i’m easing into it gradually. I guess after 2 years living in one state, you kinda get used to it and now normality feels alien !
Feel brilliant though! Spent 1000s the past 2 years trying to get better, but ironically the things most powerful were often free or cheap and simple. Will never forget what I went through and what I did to get better - so many experiments, trial and error, but one breakthrough after another, particularly the past 1 year. First year was horrific!
I do have so much advice for you all. So much. Unfortunately, I don’t see many around this forum getting REALLY serious about their recovery. Seems the focus has shifted to awareness, merck, research etc. and if you’re honest with your selves - it’s not going to make you better any time soon. Sorry to hit out - but the only one that will make you better is you. Not research, not merck, not some magic pill, not some ground breaking finding about the androgen receptor. This is just you and your body, and you seriously need to start figuring it out, otherwise I can see how some suffer many many years. It took 2 of mine! Could have been more had I not got my arse into gear, away from the forum and into my own world of recovery. Problem is, like many of you, it always seems hopeless, but you need to keep bolting things on, dropping things or adding things, when you fall down try again, and again and again. My whole world centred around it in the end, from the way I thought about sleep, waking up, going to work, work, after work, before bed, things I ate, sports i did, experiments tried. What a journey. As I said though, could write some monster thread and probably will, but I wonder how many actually listen and will take it seriously and do it themselves, stick at it. Every little thing in my life was constantly being optimised in the end, and you would not believe the discoveries I made along the way about things to do and not to do. Sometimes contrary to what Doctors told me or things I believed in my whole life, turned out to be wrong. I learned so much, and almost always from the past and not modern medicine or theories about the human body.
Anyway, i’m talking too much, it’s probably boring for you. However, i’m trying to send you a clear message here. I was a bad sufferer, yes ball/penile shrinkage, thin wrists/fingers, upper arms, mild gyno, blunt emotions, no zest for life. The lot. I am now recovered - give or take the final 5% that i’m biding my time with 
Cheers
Chi