I understand. I did contact Mew, and he said he would move this thread to the recovery section next week.
To the gentleman who suggested I join the podcast and share my story, I understand the request, but quite frankly, I am not brave enough to have my face out there and talk so candidly about the intimacy of problems in the past. I wish I was not a coward. But alas, I am only human.
I definitely did not eat grass, or use any unknown drug remedies, like I said, over the course of time, things slowly started to change. I remember a urologist telling me I would never have kids naturally, so he sent us to a sperm bank/fertility centre—Im 28 years old, fully healthy and masturbating into a cup to save some sperm—which the technician informs me is of very poor quality nonetheless. I remember wanting to jump off a bridge so badly. After that, I assigned myself to the fact we would never have kids. Fast forward a few years, and we have a vivacious beautiful little boy, and I dont care to have further sperm samples taken. Mother nature is mad scientist, and I plan on having more kids. We will see what happens
