I gave religion a try, prayed a lot every day and felt connected to God. Then I tried CBD, got psychotic and believed I was a second coming of Jesus Christ… Felt great though, godly I would say xp Then I got put in mental hospital, they put me on antipsychotics which make me numb every time. Now I’m almost month and a half off them but still feel disconected. I really struggle with faith all my life. It’s a tough subject.
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WTF this is unbelievable. Give it time mate hopefully you’ll get back to where you were, even though it’s awful it’s got to be better than NOW and then consider religion again. Your so strong to have got this far.
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Guys reckon people leave the forum because they’ve got better. I’m aware of a few where this isn’t the case. You’re another example of this.
Sure I did. For years I was showing them medical articles, but they don’t really know english and my native language is polish. In my country there’s almost no recognition of this condition. So for half my life I mostly get ridiculed by them and told that it’s all in my head. Same case with all the doctors I’ve met. The only forms of support I get are groups like this one so thank you guys.
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I’m trying to avoid forums because they’re mostly source of despair, but I get back every time…
We love you bro. Plz don’t think about killing urself or anything stupid. And also, no Antidepressants plz. I have many symptoms similar to u. We need to get through this. The most we can do is to try to live healthy and let the time pass without any negativity.
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Thanks man. I can’t help thinking about it all the time, but I don’t think I will ever act on these thoughts. Like I’m said, I’m a coward. Funny thing, I tried almost every antidepressant there is and I got damaged even further. Of course got PSSD and anhedonia along with all plethora of symptoms. After Accutane I was damaged, sure. I lost my identity, intelligence, got anxiety, got depressed, had really low sex drive but still was semi functional. In hopes of improving my situation I went to psychiatrist when I was 18. Big mistake. This whole medical industry is a joke. God damn it.
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I’m not brave enough either. The fear of those final moments terrifies me. The guys who stepped over were brave beyond. It’s not for us to judge what they did. We’ve just got to keep living through/ with this and do our utmost to try to make the best if it. One day we may turn a corner. With a heartbeat there’s always a chance. You’ve got to be in it to win it 
I admire your attitude, brother. I’m having so much difficulty enduring this for 8 months already. I cannot imagine how you’ve been doing it for all those years.
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Thank you, my friend. I would say years of practice xD But it doesn’t really get easier. I just grow more tired of this every day.
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Thats exactly the problem with ppl reporting about mushrooms. In 90% of the cases ppl havent taken enough…I had the exact same experience as you when i tried these small doses. I took the Hawaiian in Amsterdam as well which is „the full dose“ and felt nothing. Little bit more happy but it was horrible afterward.
In the study i talked about, they gave 10mg on one day and 25 mg of psyilocybin in a week afterwards. Which is a heroic dose. Maybe something around 5 g of dried mushrooms or 50 g of fresh mushrooms.
What i took a week ago was literally 60 g of truffle in Amsterdam, which i made as a tea, so i lost a little bit of of the good stuff by not chewing the thing…
And trust me…Its a whole different experience… I really felt it…It was the most intense thing that happened in my life. Its really weird.
Im not saying it must work, but to me from suicide before a week to start going shopping for groceries and cooking food at home, is a big big leap forward.
Do u feel bad after increasing androgens? Are u able to exercise even a bit?
Aren’t mushrooms 5ARI?
No idea whether magic mushrooms have any clinically significant compound that act as fin or saw palmetto…I doubt it, but i dont have any scientific evidence. Either way i didnt eat them…I made a tea…So whatever compound that might be there, it has to be heat resistant and get extracted with hot water (Exactly like psilocybin), which again makes me doubt it even more.
I’m aware that the sexual sides for some are the least of their worries. I don’t want to compare sides, because some mental sides are terrible. I had brain fog for the first two weeks which thankfully cleared up, but they made the first few weeks a living nightmare.
I know I’ve been lamenting on my thread about my sexual issues. It may seems trivial and ridiculous to some, but for me it is a life destroyer. It’s my personal hell, and it’s made me 24/7 suicidal, depressed and anxious. And I’m not even 2 months off of my first fin pill. The glimpse of recovery made me feel great until I crashed. People who have been suffering for years, you’re heroes in my eyes.
Today I had a date with my gf, obviously failed completely in the bedroom but she said she will still love me. And she is my saving grace. I’m determined to get better, otherwise I don’t want her to live sexless to a guy with zero libido and zero motivation for anything.
I guess her and faith in God right now are my only sources of hope. They make it the point… for now
Lol we don’t have brain damage. It’s just that our entire male sexual reproductive system, and dimorphic traits are pretty much dead.
Damage to male reproductive system causes severe anhedonia that ur not able to watch a movie, not able to read books, not able to sleep 1hr, not able to memorize anything, vision problems, headache, loss of smell and taste??? Plz elaborate this sir.
Consider urself lucky. Don’t compare ur mild symptoms with others plz.
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What are the things you tried to get better?
i don’t mean to downplay the problem because i am in the same boat but girls really don’t care about sex nearly as much as guys. some might even find this to be a situation they want to help out in.
i’ve talked to my shrink about this and he basically just said to go down on girls and finger them until they’re satisfied in that way. I do understand your point though but ive had a couple girlfriends who didn’t really care. just have to get more comfortable with them before you hop into bed with them
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