I went to my doc last week and told him about PFS. He did not believe me. I told him that its a real thing and that PFS is even mentioned on Wikipedia. So he checked Wikipedia and agreed to get some things tested.
We agreed on DHEA, DHT (if thats possible), Testosteron, Estrogen. What else should be tested to confirm that I still have PFS? I guess androgen receptors can not be tested?
So I can really say ok its PFS or if not, its due to my messed up gut health or some PTSD. Mainly brain fog and almost no memory. Also I feel like I dont have a personality anymore. I don´t know who I am. I have no goals. I have a complete mess in my head and no more system. I read a book and the next day I don´t remember anything from it. Today I say “ok I will change this and that in my life” and tomorrow I don´t even remember that anymore. And my anxiety went up as hell. And my behaviours and personality changed. I feel and act like a children most of the time. I feel like I am 5 years old. I am scared and have so much anxiety when I go out of the house. I guess Fin started social anxiety and in 2012 it exploded. I do so much stuff to confront my fears. I approach even girls. But it never gets any better. What I achieve on one day is erased on the next day. I was always an partly introvert guy but never had anxiety when I was social.
This all started in 2012 after my health gone down to hell. I smoked some weed (first time in life) in 2012 and ended up in a hospital because of a bad trip. A voice in my head told me to kill myself for hours. I think there all started. Maybe it messed up my brain? Maybe some dopamine/serotonine problems? But during that time I also had a heavy flu and my pancreas stopped producing diggestive enzymes. Ever since I have gut inflammation and histamine issues. Food intolerance. I think that mentioned voice started to subconsciously control me and became a part of my personality. And I can hear that voice criticizing me all the time when I am social. Telling me that I am worthless, piece of shit, loser etc.
I quit fin in 2005. I don´t remember much how it was after I stopped because I figured out that PFS is a thing just about 5 months ago. I only remember that my Libido was pretty low after quitting fin. Sometimes its pretty ok. Sometimes its not there for 2 weeks. But I still had a personality and even though I was anxious and not a social bomb, I was not that scared to go out of the house.