Update: mentally I feel 90%. I still have a little trouble concentrating, but I can manage it. The trouble is that I’m a lawyer, so not being 100% mentally is tough. I’d hate to miss an issue on a case and get screwed. I’m sure I mentioned this before, but after the first 3 or 4 months off, my sleep improved with strict regular exercise, and it has stayed good, although it’s maybe a little light.
Physically: I weight lifted for the first three years pretty consistently and it helps. The last year I’ve been lifting less, and I think that is definitely a mistake. I do think that it is more difficult to gain muscle mass with PFS than it is without, but you can’t just not lift with this thing. It definitely impacts my testosterone levels, and it breaks me through the anhedonia for 15-25 minutes after a workout (pitifully short, but it’s something). I need to start doing some high intensity interval training. I do yoga maybe once a week. I think the sweating is good, and I think it’s mentally healthy.
Supplements: vitamin d3, zinc, fish oil, multi, probiotics (I have seemingly endless issues with bloating).
Remaining sides: anhedonia, inability to get off with my girlfriend, real difficulty getting hard with my girlfriend (I can masterbate, but it sucks), some blurred vision in my left eye from time to time (not sure this is related, but I’m 95% sure it’s not an issue with my contacts, and I have read in various places that PFS can cause this), pain under left ball / prostate (checked out - fine, but for a small benign cyst on left ball - again, I’ve read of other people having these). I’m in pretty good shape 6’2’, 202 lbs, but can’t seem to lose some fat in my chest (thanks Propecia), and a layer of fat on my hips. It’s the classic feminine body type thing from PFS that we haven’t seemed to figure out yet.
Basically, I’m just trudging along, hoping it improves. I have a doctor who will put me on clomid if I want. I’m holding off - I guess there are some studies with rats that show a link to cancer, and I don’t want to get burned again from a drug. My testosterone was relatively low the last time I had it checked (450 or so) so I’m skeptical of clomid.
My diet is clean: organic, recently cut out coffee since I felt some ball pain right after drinking it. I’m not drinking alcohol at all right now. I drink a lot of pomegranate juice (helps ball pain a lot).
One question: I’ve messed around with some other supplements to increase nitric oxide levels, as discussed on the peaktestosterone.com forum, but found limited results. I also seem to be more immune to zinc (it used to bump up my erections). Does anyone have recommendations for testosterone supplements to cycle?
Thanks guys. Hope we all beat this soon. If we can just change the laws, or get enough of us to document what happened, maybe I can sue Merck for us someday