Not a typical thread! But 1000% accurate and - hopefully! - inspires YOU to “keep calm and carry on” through extremely traumatic PFS and possibly recover!
I’ll try to be succinct. I am a 51yo atty in Washington DC. I took 1.25 mg FIN religiously daily from 1999-2014…
THE GOOD
In Dec 2014 I quit FIN and a few days later “worst-case scenario PFS” plagued me for 2.5 years. I am extremely fortunate I ENTIRELY naturally recovered as follows:
- total loss of emotions - 6 months
- body feminization- several months
- total loss of libido - 2 years
- total shutdown of sexual plumbing - 2.5 years
Since June 2017, PFS has been a fading traumatic memory…
THE BAD
Now this is quirky - and disturbing! PFS was so horrifying that I incessantly was suicidal. I attempted very serious suicide FOUR TIMES.
I will skip details except one. I mistakenly believed I could “starve myself to death” in two weeks. However it took 4.5 months and I was hauled off to hospital at last minute. This unfortunately triggered ataxia, which still plagues me but is mostly resolved naturally. Since it’s not relevant to PFS, I won’t detail.
THE UGLY
This is a bit confusing but important. Entirely separate from PFS, taking FIN 15 years obliterated my ability to sleep beginning June 2014! Even more confusing, I DON’T NEED TO SLEEP!
Yes, that is utterly impossible. Except it’s not. I primarily take short “rest naps” and function and feel fine! I sometimes take Belsomra and get a few hours of unconscious sleep and also feel and function fine! Impossible, right? Nope.
Two full-time sleep docs are unable to assess me because my sleep dysfunction is unprecedented!
Last, I CANNOT SUE MERCK because my sleep dysfunction is impossible, unique, and - weirdly- doesn’t “harm” me in any manner a jury could assess!
PFS COUNSELING
Now my story is unique but YOU should contact Phillip Roberts to arrange critical counseling to help YOU weather the PFS storm.
Also try anti-depressants and sleeping pills.
Hang in there and good luck!
OMITTED
For brevity I’ve omitted countless wild/disturbing details that are not germane to my points. Police broke into my apartment, crazy weeks at hospitals, hallucinations, etc. Best forgotten…
PS
Mel H., me last month in DC