Hi to all,
i guess many of you have already recocgnized, that i´m doing an Full Rawfood Diet. I started in April so i´m doing it now since a little more then 7 months. I was very hard to myself cause i just wanted to do it one time and also i wanted to get the best results out of it as possible.
I took 2- 3 pills fin in July 2008 and with the first pill i dropped i felt the fog. In the beginning i thought it will get better with time but after 3 days it went much worse and so i quit the stuff immediatley. From there on, i was tottaly fogged and my life was totally out of control… I felt so numb, i had no emotions at all i just felt like a roboter i acted like a roboter. My speaking was tottaly monoton, there where no emotions in it. In Sept. 2008 i started some new work and it was a horrible experience. Everyday i walked in and i was not able to have normal conversation, i was so full of anxiety and so foggy, i was not able to do my job properly ( i worked with disabled persons)… and soon the work mates began to doubt about my abilities regarding the work i have to do. after like 6- 8 weeks after quitting i had a jolt of recovery, i felt much better and then i thought… yeahh, thats it and i started to eat rubbish like cake and drank lots of coffee etc. at the time i didnt now about the food conection and brainfog. After drinking lots coffee and stuff, i began to start worse again… frist i didnt now wahts the problem but soon i recognized that there is a connection between food and my feelings. So i started to eat better. I quit all coffee, sugars and things like that but i still ate cooked food. I recocnized that when i eat less bread and fatty things i feel worse with it and i recocnized that when i eat things like fresh food, like fruits i felt no difference in the fog after eating but after eating things like bread, rice, couscous, corn and heavy things like french fries etc. i felt much worse after eating.
So i tried it out after a few months how my body reacts on different foods and i began to eat much more raw things but still i had not the balls to do fully raw, also i didnt no at that time that the full raw diet can be a solution.
I had like 2 times in that time between sep. 08 and january 09 mild recovery signs but everytime i felt a little better i started to eat the wrong food again… cause i thought its ok. thats really really tricy… what i found out later that when i feel better i stil have to eat the right food cause after eating the wrong things even when i feel quite good will throw me back in hell…
After that mild recoverie signs and then with the starting of eating shit my body totally broke down. in beginng 09 i was sooo destroyed i was lying at home in bed all the time. I was not able to think… i felt so bad. You can´t imagine. My work was a disaster and i was not able to work. I quit my band and it used to be the greatest thing for me to play in my band… i used to go out like 2- 3 times a week. I havent beent out in that not once over a perio of at least 8- 10 months.
I thought i have to die. there was no way out… i was so extremly foogged over months and i saw like 6-7 docotors and 5 natuzre healers and there was no cure in view… I was here on the board everyday and tried out all things people have mentioned here, like l- terosin, pregnononlone cream, iod… many more. the only thing i havent tried was ghb and i thought hardly of taking it… cause i thought ieveryrthing i better then my fog i have. even death would be better… but somehow i thught i´m a fighter and this sutff will not get me down… even when i felt out of this world. In april 09 i was so down that my parents deciced that i have to go in an psychatic clinic and i admit cause i tried really everyhting. I was open for every little piece of hope… I tried everyhting no matter what the price was or what things i had to do.
In the clinic they havent blieved my story about fin… they said its not possible to have symptoms like that form finm i showed them studies forem this forum hee but they simply laughed… they thought they know it better cause they are docotors and i´m just a normal guy with no medical knowledge. and it came that they declared me as schizophrenic and i had to do the schizophrenic programm and took the medicine. I felt even wirse with that stuf… and i avoided to take that medicine and threw it in the toilet when nobody was looking. After 2 weeks i deciced that the clinic is the wrong place for cuase they dont beleive and i left the clinic on my own descicion. the docotors wanted to keep me longer. At that time i came across cdnuts posts in this forum here and i was really amazed about what he was telling. I cured his brainfog with waterfasting and rawfood diet and i thought. ´thats it!
I wrote some mails with him and i wanted to do a water fast immediately. Unfortunatekly i was way to skinny to do a fast like that and i deciced to do a fully rawfood diet. 100 % with no exception. cdnuts gave me hope again after all this disapointments with doctors. Also as i wrote before, i always felt that there is a connection between food and my Fog. I was open for everything cause there was no other chance as trial and error.
I´m a really big foodie. Food means much to me and it really i a big challenge for me to do a fully rw diet but i thoight its much much better to live some time without the satisfaction of cooked food then living in hell for the rest of my life. The Decicion was quite easy. Also i wanted to do it just one time with no break ups.
okay. There first months of eating raw have been very hard. After eating 27 years of life mostly unhealthy food, i had hard detox over the first couple of months and sometimes the symptoms went worse. It had to take all the poison out of body which has collected there from all my life. It was quite hard and the first 4 months of being was almost no improvement achieved. Yes, i began to doubt about all effort, if it will really help or heal me. I did it for 4 months and there is almost no change. Cdnuts gave me always much courage and said, that it is very importnt to stay on the diet and my body will heal but i habve to stay on it how bad it may be at the moment.
the Theory behind it makes lot of sense to me, thats another big point why started with doing it. the only thing what can heal you is your body itself. Nothing else can heal you and it order of that you have thread your body the best possible way to allow your body to reset itself. in cooked foods, there strucuture of moleculs has changed compared to the natural state as it was on bushes, tree etc. and that make it harder for the body to handle it. I always felt it, cause this sickness makes us very very senstitive to what we are eating. also it gives us a big awarness how we should thread our body to be healhty and fit.
If you eat unprocessed food, its easier for ypour body handle and your body doesnt use so much energy in digesting and uses the energy for restore and taking the poison out. It made very much sense to me that when i live the way we are designed for, when i live a natural way… i will be healing cause if you follow natures rules and life with nature in harmony and balance, sooner or later everyhting will be fine. I did also lots of exercices like running and swimming. What else i did was yoga and meditation. Yoga helped me very much to become calmer and more relaxed about the situation. Last but not least i handled to impact if this emotional chaos as well. I did a lot for my body but it was very hard to accept that i cant go out and meet friends, to be lonely without social life. So i handled the negative emotions about that feelings with techniques like emotrance and the mace energy method. This both methods helped not to overact and do something wrong to me. they helped me to stay on the path, to be strong with eating and exercices even when in some moment i doubted about all the effort and thought about suicide.
Afer like 4, 5 - 5 months sticking with fully raw some changes occured, i became more clear for someday and the other days it went back in hell. like 2 weeks later it became again more clear. These days have been the first days with a little positve feeling for like more than 10 months. As i got that feelings i knew that i´m on the right way and its simply that the disease is so heavy that my body will take time to heal fully. I want back in hell and 2 weeks later i came back again… That what cdnuts told me all the time. The body heals in cycles. There are bad caclyes and good cycles and when you start with raw your good cycles will be at first very rare and they wil get more and more… also the grade of the good cacley will decrease with time. That means the good cycles will be feel better and the bad cyles will be feeling better to and that cycles thing goes on and on till the good nu,mber that bad out and there is only good cycles left… at the end i t will like good cycles and very good cycles till someday only vry good is left. This is how the body works and it really needs time.
I´m 7 full months now on this yoga, meditation, exercices, rawfood journey and i feel so much better compared to some months before. I come back in every of life… my fog is so much better. Its not completely gine but i can start to live again, i can start to enjoy life again… i´m not numb like a robot anymore. I feel slight anxiety but not the heavy fog… and i know that in a short amount of time. My body will be fully recovred. And thats only because i stayed hard and kept the raw diet for so long and ignored all the people arund who wanted to tell me that its not good waht i´m doing. they didnt know how i felt and cdnuts cured his fog with the same way and i knoew that i will be the same.
I´m so thankful for coming bakc on this planet, for leaving this emotional hell and i have to thanks cdnuts so much for all the good words which kept me going. And i really can tell you that if you have the will power to that journey you will be healing cuase that is how nture works. here are 2 examples on this board for the extraordinary healing abilities of our body and i hope i can encourage some people here to do the same way. You all have to be right of hapiness and the people who sell fin should go to prison. What happened has happened and the only thing we can do is to stay open and strong and threat our bodies the best way we can. Food is the main point in recovering from fin. Now i´m very sure about that.
i somebody wants to try this way, here is what i eat a day…
i eat like at least 20- 25 fruits a day. lots of bananas to get my calories. I eat like a half avocado for the fat ( not more avocado cause to much fat makes you numb) Its important that you dont eat sweet things and fat together. When i eat avocados i wait a least 2 hour before i eat fruits. the fats holds the sugar in the system and makles your symptoms worse.
I need some seeds like sunflower seeds and hemp seeds for the protein. Also spinach has lots of protien in it.
And of course i eat veggies like tomatoes, cucumber. The full programm according to my taste. Its important to eat green salads too. I take my salads as a smoothies. that means that i put my salds in a blender and mix it up with some fruits and drink the stuff. I do this almost eveytime and i drink just water. Nothing else… thats pretty much it.
For more information you seek the rawfood board at www.giveittomeraw.com
thanks for everything guy and i really wish that all of you will be recovering soon. I know how bad you feel and i keep sending prayers out for you…