Hi all,
I’ve been trying so hard since crashing exactly 2 months ago to think positively and think there’s a way out of this but I’m coming to the end I think. If anything I’m getting worse each day and I’m beginning to think ill be better off at peace and rid of all this horrendous pain. There’s only so much anxiety, insomnia, brain fog, testicular pain, depression, dry mouth, panic attacks, zombie like state that I can take. I’ve spent the last day or so looking over old pre fin pics on Facebook and the great life I once had and I just think I will never ever get back to that. I’ve had 31 great years on this planet, the last 2 since crashing have finished me off. I live in Newcastle in the UK I will in my suicide note lay it all bare so in death I hope I can stop this drug from ruining more lives.
God bless all of you out there
Paul