I’m going on to starvation as I type. Last ditch for some restbite. Everything I eat causes hell now it’s steadily got worse these past few years
What is so bad? Lethargy, brain fog, sexual sides, AUtoimmune response?
@needacure. I’ve had PFS for 20 years and it’s been a deteriating picture. My baseline has got worse and worse. This is now the equivalent to crash status permanently. Extreme anxiety, insomnia, suicidal ideation, irritability, tearful, angry, upset, anhedonia, etc no let up. Every physical side in the book and some. Unrecognisable physically, my features have changed all of this continues to deteriorate. Nothing has settled down. Sensitive to almost everything I eat. Vision has virtually gone in my left eye. Tinnitus has exploded and more There is so much damage. Dementia like symptoms. Arm shakes. Unhealed cuts and bruises in many places, gums bleeding every day. I drove at speed last night to end my suffering but breaked before it was too late. Regardless of what I endure with PFS I’m ultimately a coward when if comes to ending this. I’ve tried everything nothing works. The damage is catastrophic.
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Sorry to hear what you are going through mate. As far as I remember you have a family. Please try to hang on for them.
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It’s killing me but thanks @needacure fear and my son but the deteriation in my behaviour is massive it’s so hard to hold it together in front of him. He, like most children need the full skill set, fun, discipline, tolerance and love. My tolerance is In negative territory. I snap at him far too much it’s erasing my soul. No calming strategies hold water any more. My wife “seperated” was in tears this morning as she’s witnessing my demise first hand and feels helpless. God, mate he’s my last real hope. I’ve tried the fasting before it’s desperation.
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It may not be much to some people. But I am praying for you. You are suffering more than many will ever know. You’re fucking strong mate.
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Hard to say. @DaveK22 posted a recovery from TRT and is a person I have spoken to several times over the phone for a few years. Unfortunately, he never checked back to confirm it was working long-term and he had confirmed low T for years after Accutane to begin with.
I don’t understand how much he pushed himself and experimented dangerously for libido when he didn’t have severe ED.
In my case libido follows erectile function.
I can emphatise his fear of TRT commitment too.