Thanks Greek - defo reassuring. That’s one of the things I seem to worry about the least. Chi, CD and a few others who recovered said that all came back ok in the end.
Good news for anybody fretting.
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Hi Greek,
I’m new here 
Thats really great news. I’m happy for you 
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Greek, I too have both kinds of erections. The narrow hard and curved type and the fleshy, wide and more straight kind. Absolutely fascinating to hear what I experience described so aptly.
When I make my temporary recoveries it returns to it’s pre-PFS morphology. This is interesting. It’s almost as though certain nerves are activating which allow differing levels of blood to fill different areas of the penis.
If we describe the two states as as ‘thin’ and ‘wide’ respectively, it’s almost as though the penis structure is allowing more of itself to fill with blood in the ‘wide’ state. This straightens out the penis, as it provides structure around the periphery of the urethra (or so I hypothesise).
When the penis doesn’t have these supporting blood vessels,namely in the ‘thin’ state, it curves upwards due to the lack of reinforcement. It’s hard around the inner core but the outer core is almost as though it’s a balloon which hasn’t been inflated.
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That’s a good description. I hadn’t really had a good idea of how to describe it but an inner and outer core would make sense. It is as though only the inner core fills with the “thin” erection, I agree.
The mystery is what causes this?
Well. I just wanted to document, not explain (obviously we don’t know) but I assume it’s something to do with stages of arousal? The nocturnal “maintenance” erection will be triggered without mental stimulation (sexual thoughts and feelings) while the normal erection requires it. Perhaps there’s a connection.
Would you say this is the often-mentioned “hourglass” erection?
Not me, no. I’m not sure what might be going on, but I assume it’s possible that it’s also part of a process of certain parts filling while others don’t.
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I sometimes experience a reverse hourglass shape, where the bottom is thick but the head isn’t inflated, sort of forming a rough cone shape. Definitely a result of differential inflation of different parts of the penis.
Yeah I experienced something like this too.
circulation issue. I had this too for a while. It’s possible it has something to do with androgen receptors, but I noticed mine improved after improving circulatory health
Possibly, though I haven’t had any other issues associated with poor circulation.
That’s so fucking bizarre! This phenomenon happens to me all the time. It’s so fucking odd, I need to know what is going on in our bodies.
More positive news.
2 days of fuller erections which I think after 14 months are closer to my previous normal than ever before. I would say it’s as if the surrounding tissue is somehow thicker and fuller around the inner core.
It’s difficult to be sure, but I think what felt roughly back to normal when I posted above was still thinner than I was before I started and now I think I’ve taken another step to normality. It’s difficult to remember after so long with a different physical shape. I note that I have slept better these past few days as well, which I think is further indication that all these effects are downstream from one single cause - for me, everything generally gets better / worse all at once - though there are some symptoms which seemed to come and go independently.
Again, just trying to put something positive out there. I hope that helps someone.
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What about your balls, if i may ask?..Did you have testicular shrinkage?Are they fuller now?
Yes, fuller now.
I experience exactly the same. Narrow, hourglass shape when not erect, a little bend. As if the penis is pulled inwards. Very tense. I think personally that this has to do with lack of hormones, that are needed to relax the penis. I have read this somewhere also, that hormones are needed to relax the penis. And this is also how it exaclty feels, very NOT relaxed.
@Greek Do you mean your nocturnal ones or the arousal ones? I’m getting the weird pointy (in my case flat-looking) nocturnal ones now, they’re making me feel like I’ve been mutilated (which I guess I kind of have). I’d prefer not to have them at all, like while I was on fin. I can get more normal ones manually, but not like pre-going off fin.
I javen’t been aware of nocturnal ones for a while (I’ve actually been sleeping!)
I am 100% certain now that whatever is going on with me is not permanent and that even symptoms that seem to indicate physical change can resolve.
I know it’s distressing but you need not feel that you are stuck forever.
How long have you been off? If over 3 months, fill out the survey please. If less than 3 months (and even if more), you may find things resolve on their own soon.
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Thanks for replying. Only two months, I’m aware of the survey and will take it in a month. I had taken fin for 10 years on and off, but never experienced such a bad reaction when going off. I don’t think I experienced a real “crash” this time either, just a psychological breakdown in the last few days, due to symptoms piling up and worsening since I quit. I’ve read quite a few of your posts and find your optimism very helpful 
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