My Saw Palmetto Nightmare

I’m just going to pop in here to say there has to be something in at least saw palmetto suffers and possibly others too on estrogen receptor spiking.

So I decided to try hesperidin 500 mg, I didn’t expect too much but I was hit with a a very confusing sack of bricks. In minutes I feel a bunch of energy but very unstable “immune system implosion” energy and as this happens all my senses open up, in fact I didn’t even know how much sensory information I was still missing from my skin before taking this. The immune response was terrible and my tinnitus really ramped up too but there was something very interesting about this immune reaction. It at it’s strongest partially disabled my sexual functioning YET everything including my genitals was more sensitive than it’s been since this initially happened. In fact there was no genital shrinkage at all, they were hanging normally but under the specific immune response condition originating from whatever shock reaction this was it wouldn’t respond (I’d later find out this was the likely the estrogen receptor signalling pathway). That immune response was literally the exact same one that correlated with my condition worsening right past the peak of the worst that kept snowballing until I was so sensitive to everything that I lose even my methyl-b12 that if you remember I really had to fight to get back. Only this time under it I was hyper sensitive and could sexually function as it was dying down a bit as the hours passed (it took almost 2 days to die down to manageable levels though), right before that happened in the beginning I lost sensation. So this time this surge in symptoms occured when it was turned back on!

I had no idea what had happened here. At first I was looking at studies on the gut and immune system regarding LPS inflammation but it didn’t really make sense. Though I got some benefits from bombing my guts with lyme/coinfection herbals before and initially got sensation back with osha root this couldn’t have been what happened because previously other things that significantly lowered LPS or LPS induced inflammation would have done this too but they didn’t. So I search other body systems and not much comes up. Then I search it with estrogen and find this.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC10574669/ - Hesperidin Anti-Osteoporosis by Regulating Estrogen Signaling Pathways

"The molecular docking results revealed that AKT1, NOS3, HSP90AA1, ESR1, PPARG, SRC, ALB, MMP2, MMP9, and IGF1 exhibited binding energies of −10.6, −10.2, −9.4, −9.0, −8.8, −8.3, −7.8, −7.6, −6.7, and −6.0 kcal/mol, respectively. Generally, a binding energy lower than −5.0 kcal/mol indicates favorable binding activity between the molecule and the target protein. In this case, all the core target proteins demonstrated binding energies below −5.0 kcal/mol, suggesting a strong interaction between hesperidin and the core targets. "

“Compared to the control group, the mRNA expression of ESR1, SRC, AKT1, and NOS3 in the model group cells showed a significant decrease. In contrast to the model group, the treatment group exhibited a significant upregulation of ESR1, SRC, AKT1, and NOS3 mRNA expression, with statistically significant differences observed as shown in Figure 9.”

“This present study conducted core target enrichment analysis mapping hesperidin, oxidative stress, and OP, revealing significant enrichment of the estrogen signaling pathway in the KEGG enrichment analysis. Estrogen can act on osteoblasts, osteoclasts, T cells, and bone cells to participate in bone metabolism and maintain bone formation [35]. Research has shown that the use of ERα and ERβ-specific drugs can regulate osteoblasts through estrogenic effects, thereby promoting bone formation [36]. The activation of the estrogen signaling pathway has the potential to impact the intercommunication between downstream transcription factors and the PI3K/AKT signaling pathway. The activation of the PI3K/AKT signaling pathway results in the upregulation of endothelial eNOS and the induction of elevated levels of NO, thereby stimulating angiogenesis, enhancing the local blood supply to bone tissue, and improving the microcirculatory structure.”

I think what I did was shock the estrogen signalling pathway WITHOUT actual estrogen and this created the perfect environment to restart the system but there was also a problem, shock to these systems can also invoke the wrath of the immune system. Whether you turn it on or off in an event, the same immune dysregulation process could possibly occur. In my case here the same one that amped up when it was shut down was the same one that initiated upon shocking it back on which can ironically cause sexual dysfunction.

So now I had the immune problem again with a lot of bad familiar feelings. But I remembered what intially got me out of that so I knew I had to take action quick here or I was gonna crash. So I remembered in the beginning activated charcoal helped a bunch so I downed a bunch of that to help clean up the immune mediator mess. It was well past noon so I just waited until it was my usually 4-5 PM coffee time and settled for 5 PM. Getting some coffee down simmered things down slightly but it was enough to buy me a little time. Right after that I had some cistus which also initially helped right around the time I first tried osha root (though I wouldn’t use this till yesterday) and followed it with green tea and got enough relief to rest at least. I seemed to have avoided the storm as the sensitivity of everything stayed high and I actually almost couldn’t stop getting morning wood and fantasizing as I was so tired from this all and kept failing to get up past my alarm going off. When I did I resumed the day as normal, I had burning eyes, kind of a hot head feeling, and a major headache with a bit of a sore throat thing going on but I was fine enough. So later I repeated the evening coffee and tea thing but only I took 1/4th of a capsule of osha root before the cistus and green tea, the nmoved the activated charcoal dose till after that. And it worked! I beat back the reaction even more, I was extremely tired and it was hard getting to my usual bed time but when I did I slept like a rock and sensitivity stayed up. Today I still have a little stingy eyes on and off with some tinnitus but it’s not severe. Also kind of fatigued from emergency bombing myself with all of that stuff every yesterday in rapid succession but doing pretty ok and I expect I’ll be ok again the next week.

The big question for me is why did lyme/coinfection herbals work so well? I have a theory in my case since I had immune dysfunction, POIS, and all sorts of other neurological problems before this. I even was taking lions mane when it happened but lions mane didn’t crash me till after this all went down. I had a host of dormant or barely in control infections and viruses including a history of mold toxicity too. My system was already extremely vulnerable. When I introduced saw palmetto what this did to the estrogen signalling pathway broke the camels back and essentially opened the gates of hell. First due to the shock the pathway itself and a bunch of androgen receptors and hormones themselves went under, so now the body really couldn’t defend itself from much of anything. Then the immune system in an emergency response activated the “brain burner” never ending cytokine storm scorched earth strategy which essentially just bombed everything in an autoimmune disaster taking out countless other signalling pathways and receptors with it leading to complete numbness and an over methylated genetic mess that looked like the final boss of post drug damage.

Hopefully when I recover from this I’ll actually be a recovery story but I’ll see how I do over the next few months hoping for no regressions. I don’t really besides one of lyme herbal have anything else I really even want to try, so for now I don’t really have much to do but just keep myself on my current supplement and herbal rotation while keeping myself otherwise healthy.

Big update! So I tried Inosine but the results I got from it were very similar to the glucarolactone trial and interesting even resulted in a neuropathy flare just like it all over my body but less so than the glucarolactone. I experienced more energy but it was a very unstable physical energy that felt more like someone cranked my physical functioning up but to the fault of what was actually chemically going on as the only thing it helped with was the fatigue. No sexual changes in functioning either, just made me overstimulated in a very bad way and dropped me in neuropathy hell for a while.

A couple days ago though I got to try Houttuynia Cordata extract, I largely got this as it was reccomended to try by a lot of people on the Lyme sub specifically for Bart I believe. I didn’t know if I had any Bartonella issues so I thought why not, it may even have other benefits too. . Very weird results but remaining positives from it!

I took the first dose a couple days ago. on 4th of July. At first I didn’t notice much but effects slowly crept in. I noticed I felt much calmer, my senses were also much clearer, it almost had sort of a sedative effect that got more pronounced as the day went on but I also got some weird head pressure too so I suspect it was a herx. The most interesting thing was that stuck is I got a huge increase in skin and penile sensation even though the fatigue the dose induced really killed the sex drive and ability itself. When it came back the next day and I felt less in the twilight zone (though I still was and today I also still feel a bit wonky but the benefits stuck) and my sexual functioning was much better and more reactive. Spontaneous erections and even sweating are now easier, not sure what the connection there was but probably something autonomic nervous system linked. My immune system was also much more tamed though I had an orgasm and also was exposed to a lot of EMF radiation in the past couple days so I’m currently as I type this very POIS and PEM flu-ish. I’ll give another update when I bounce out of this on how I’m doing in a week without changing anything. One dose of the extract was enough for me as the side effects were too intense but here’s to hoping the positives stay from it.

Recently I’ve experimented more with vitamin D, you can find the reports on that here and some previous posts here.

In short it was an absolute disaster and I have been in hell for the past few days, the worst has been the extreme restlessness and absurd anxiety. The only D3 I haven’t tried is of fish oil origin in the Solgar version and though I’m fine with eating fish I’m really hesitant right now to keep hammering away at the D3 rock. Next up to try is biotin which should come on sunday, mainly wanted to try because some people on the CFS forum report improvements with it. It seems to be pretty safe and I can only find a single report on the pssd forum of a crash but it was very vague and they didn’t specifically say what happened. The vast majority of other reports on it seem to be either more energy, much less energy, or increases in anxiety at the most negative from what I was able to comb out of the internet.

So I got to try high dose biotin (10 mg) and I largely stated what happened in this topic thst just happened to pop up on PheonixRising. - https://forums.phoenixrising.me/threads/masturbation-and-sexual-thinking-triggering-bad-feeling.92301/#post-2463257

Post orgasm here I also want to add I now have increased sex drive but it slightly harder to get it going than it was before the orgasm. The baseline desire is closer to norlap pre-saw palmetto though, definitely more of an essence of that old animalistic lust returning that started after the vitamin D3 topical disaster bounce back whatever happened there. I’ll have to wait a while now and see how things roll out from here in how I feel. Speaking of D3 I am trying to gather the courage to see what happen if I consumed the fish oil derived D3 as eating fish like salmon to me is no issue. Like I said though I currently don’t have much to do here but sit around and let my body do it’s thing over the next week or so.

edit - I gotta make myself dinner tonight and remembered the whole spinach overload dolichol deprivation thing I did which way back granted me some sexual functioning back, so I bought a bag of spinach tonight and I’m going to throw a ton in the pan and see how it affects me in this weird post-biotin and post-orgasm enhanced libido but slightly muted pleasure state on the bounce back in coming days.

edit 7/15 afternoon - As the day went on around 6-8 PM as usual was the best time for me in terms of how I ffelt but I felt more tired and dull in the background. I felt the coffee I drank a little more for some reason though if it means anything in the context but only I was met with a huge headache afterwards and this later got worse with green tea despite the cistus tea I had before it not doing anything of the sort. I ate dinner and felt a lot more tired and out of it with no boost from the extra spinach. I watched a show with some people online later which I was able to enjoy on the surface and went to sleep not too long after. I slept ok but had extremely vivid, disturbing at times dreams that were similar to migraine/D3 dreams (on the first day of trying it again). This morning I just felt extremely lethargic and bored, not much sex drive up front either like in previous days. Then I was looking for more information on biotin and realized it is a sulphur based compound and I thought that a big part of this issue is because that completely tipped the sulphur scales and all that coffee, tea, and garlic in the food I ate really drove it home. I remember back many years ago actually having a very similar reaction as this to brussels sprouts especially with the whole exhausted lead legs/body thing I had going on. I should reduce thiols in my diet and see if anything improves. Overall today I’m just fatigued, heavy, and achy but with a strangely clearer head I suppose it may have something to do with ammonia metabolism though which I’ll mention below. Also not sure if ammonia metabolism has any toxic sub-byproducts that can also build up and have a hard time getting in people with impaired detox pathways.

In PheonixRising topic I also found that biotin has a strange relationship with dopamine specifically and that could be part of what was going on along with some immune modulatory effects, and apparently it also facilitates detox reactions of ammonia and glutamate specifically though I’m not sure if there is any other detoxification it aids in. I’ve been wanting to give glutathione a try but all the lipo forms I could find have choline and I doubt the dry regular oral form would be any use at the micro doses I wanted to play around with it at.

I’ll see where this goes over the next few days and see how thing change or improve from there. I also want to do another topical D3 skin test to see if I react the same way as last time and get the same bounce back improvements back to see if it’s repeatable with skin dosing. It was a 1000 iu dose before and currently I just have the same form but what is in the 5000 iu caps sitting around though I doubt on the skin with such low availability it’ll matter much as long as it’s an oil carrier.

my current theory based on all of this and what I found happened not too long ago when I ate a whole bunch of asparagus is that what is left is that something is going wrong in the voltage gated ion channels and the problem child is the calcium channel specifically which is an excitable channel. The only thing so far that recently almost got me back completely was the bounce back from that skin level D3 dose. I actually had old desires to watch things I enjoy come back in a very familiar way and with that came a very familiar intensity to my sex drive even if I had just a little more reactivity to gain back after the fact still. That was the only time that returned and far enough out where I’m past the point where much can absolutely destroy me save for likely the big boys like saw palmetto itself again, fin, or lions mane. I haven’t tried a calcium supplement itself to see how I react to calcium on it’s own as I feel that test itself will also be too risky since I’m now very certain this is a calcium channel malfunction related to dopamine.

From a quick search thanks to Brave’s AI thing I found that - “Based on the provided search results, dopamine transmission is regulated by axonal voltage-gated calcium channels (VGCCs) of the N-, Q-, T-, and L-type. These channels differ in their regulation and contribution to dopamine transmission between striatal domains.”

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Calcium_channel - you can explore more of what each type of calcium channel dose here and it seems to be a huge field of research to get into so I’m just going to leave this here, you get the picture of what I’m getting at here. Even the current calcium level in the body to make thing more complex effects the specifics of how these operate. This may also be a clue into MK7 K2 initially helped me so much. Voltage gated ion channels also are crucial in control of the immune system and I can’t believe I didn’t make this connection before.

I dug this up just now looking for some sort of connection to vitamin D - https://www.nature.com/articles/s41398-019-0626-z - 1,25-Dihydroxyvitamin D modulates L-type voltage-gated calcium channels in a subset of neurons in the developing mouse prefrontal cortex


https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7072170/ -
Role of the TRPV Channels in the Endoplasmic Reticulum Calcium Homeostasis

https://www.nature.com/articles/nn.3000 - TRPA1 channels regulate astrocyte resting calcium and inhibitory synapse efficacy through GAT-3

Calcium is also tightly linked to the TRP systems with the heat sensor TRPV1 being a big one.

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8032246/ - TRPV1 channels as a newly identified target for vitamin D

TRPV1 is also caught in vitamin D’s crossfire. It’s no wonder temperature especially earlier on affected what I was going through so greatly. One of the most notable was how the horrible in very beginning head pressure and numbness would increase in response to cold yet I would barely be able to feel cold at all. If I ate enough spicy and temperature hot food at once I would get some relief much like revving up an engine that wouldn’t start that far back too. Seems to be some really wonky stuff going on with the calcium channels interface with TRP systems and immune modulators of the calcium channels in relation to dopamine and possible other neurosteroid/hormonal components. Vitamin D3 is essentially the perfect modifier at the very center of everything going in haywire, even looking it up here it’s clear other people have wildly different responses to it. Mine even vary by type of D and route of administration that I can only guess effects the immune modifiers of the voltage gated systems
and TRP system downstream differently.


I also decided to quickly look into androgens and androgen receptors in relation to the calcium channels specifically. There is also a huge connection here and I’ll just provide the tip of the iceberg and go through more of this later as I don’t have time right now and all of this makes my brain hurt. It would be interesting to put all of this together in a coherent visual map of the interactions of these systems in relation to this bubble of conditions like PFS/PSSD/other psyche drug and related injuries that have the same umbrella of symptom presentations.

https://www.mdpi.com/2073-4409/11/23/3850 - Intercommunication between Voltage-Gated Calcium Channels and Estrogen Receptor/Estrogen Signaling: Insights into Physiological and Pathological Conditions

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0024320522008554 - Activation of androgen receptors alters hippocampal synaptic plasticity and memory retention through modulation of L-type calcium channels


Vitamin A supplemented though didn’t do much of anything, it’s linked to D in some regulatory fashions but doesn’t hit the target like D3 does which also explains why vitamin A didn’t seem to do much of anything. No calcium channel links, no androgen receptor links, no TRP system links, ect.

I’ll know more after another D3 skin test but what I imagine through modulating this channel (one of the major culprits in this condition appears to be the L channel I see referenced the most) needs to be done correction of the dopamine currents and the rest will fall in line. I’m just hoping for a solid repeatable here in terms of what happens.

Last night later into this morning I was much more sexually reactive again, this morning somewhat less lethargic too but still feeling kind of run down. I’m comfortable where I am sexually speaking but I still now need to find out what the repeated skin exposure to D3 will do again when I feel comfortable doing so since I can’t predict how I’ll feel in the next few days. Here’s to hoping it restarts the engine and gives me the same progression of effects as last time and bounce back. If it does and things stay stable I think I’ll be out.

edit from this evening - I feel fine enough to give the topical D3 a try again, I need to work tomorrow so it’ll be the day after tomorrow when I have a bunch of days off as I’ll likely be on the border of a panic attack for 3-4 days on end judging by what happened last time. Stocking up on good food, getting comfy, and preparing to go full hermit mode for a short while as I ride it out but hoping the test goes smoother than that.

Earlier update than I expected since this topical D3 experiment once again didn’t go as expected, in fact this time almost nothing happened at all besides a more vague sense of extra energy but like a greatly lessened energy that lead to the extreme anxiety ridden state like last time. Before I took the dose and after I was equally as horny and reactive, in fact it’s probably as good as its going to get there now. I had an orgasm and despite the shitty condition that returned (POIS though it’s been worse) I am happy it’s back because that means I now finally have everything back online and functioning at a previous baseline.

There’s not really much else for me to do here, now the only thing I can do is simply wait and live my life. If in a few months nothing changes from where I am right now I will be a cured case though keep in mind because of POIS and other likely autoimmune neurological issues I had problems long before PFS so recovery is strictly coming from a cured PFS angle. My theory though on what I did here is corrected a voltage gated ion channel problem and everything else started working again that was finally able to occur after I undid all of the other receptor and epigenetic modifications. Essentially I set everything back up correctly but I just had to get the whole electrical system firing correctly again.

update 7/20 - Last night I got some take out and let loose a little as I was feeling pretty garbage anyways in the bounce back from my POIS that at least means everything is working again, this morning there was no change and I ate a bunch of unhealthy garbage. Feeling music, stimulants, my sexuality, drive, and motivation again. I also noticed my body is producing mucus normally again and sweating is easier.

MY question now is “now what?”, since it’s the end of July it has been a little over a year. I look around me and there is so much to do that’s been being slept on, so much lost money, and I’m also at a real fork in the road with other aspects of my life too. My place is a mess, I’ve fallen out socially with so many people online, and I’ve essentially done barely anything in the past months but medical experimentation and resting. I’m so pissed off this all happened and all because one stupid day in June I decided to see what would happen if I grew out my hair with somehow the most dangerous plant in the universe. In the next few weeks here I’m probably going to need to just take easy and take care of everything a step at a time.

In my next posts here I’m going to be trying to dissect what occurred this whole time to the best of my ability in very sloppy fashion because I’m just some random person that got unexpectedly train wrecked by a stupid plant after a life time of POIS like issues that I also relentlessly in my mid 20’s and above tried to defeat and have taking educated guesses in targeting my issues. I did…but I had to get post-saw syndrome on my disasterous supplement stack I was also on at the time with my recreational kratom and HHC use to stop it. I don’t really have a plan from here on out, I’m going to be more live blogging about the systems possibly involved based on what I experienced. There may be possible bridges between these conditions like for example previously having POIS making you more susceptible to developing PFS/PSSD/ect- as a flip side. I actually found a user on the POIS forums and subreddit with the same POIS symptom presentation as me. The most interesting thing about this user is that they had same age where they noticed things would go wrong after orgasm and also had the same frequent ear infections that I had when they were a child. The most interesting thing about this person is they get POIS symptom cut downs from SSRI’s and finasteride though saw palmetto itself didn’t do anything to them. Lions mane and reishi gave them less wet dreams and lions mane has a mild stimulant effect on them and fought back a little of the POIS cognitive symptoms like it did for me which is why I was on it years back when I only had POIS. This of course would later likely be part of what put the final nails in the coffin for me and switched the gears in my body/brain from POIS mode to Post-saw mode as I was on it when I crashed. The stimulant effect from it occasionally gave me more anxiety and the pills of the stuff would make me feel depressed and crazy at the same time but 1 mL of an extract of lions mane was my sweet spot. What helped with my POIS was quercetin too which I integrated daily at some point, this is also what crashed me a third time in my post-saw journey. There is a trend where what helps with POIS in my case and this other user I found’s case where if something helps with POIS it has severe crash potential in a PFS/PSSD like bodily condition. NAC was one of my last additions to my stack that I crashed with before the big saw palmetto disaster. It first caused extreme stimulation which people told me to power through followed by a much calmer state upon taking it after I did power through. I would later upon removing it realize the only thing it was doing was slower lowering me into anhedonia hell that the saw palmetto disaster allowed to fully take place. After removing NAC I got more bounce back misery that I typed about way up above if you search NAC in here.


STACKS BEFORE AND AFTER

  • My stack when I crashed - 1000 mg NAC, 1000 mcg methyl-b12, 1000 mcg methyl-folate, 100 mg magnesium malate, 1000 mg vitamin C, 500 mg taurine, 500 mg niacinamide, 500 mg quercetin, 1 mL lions mane extract, 2 mugs of yerba mate every morning.

drugs - 25-30 grams kratom daily, 3-4 puffs of HHC in the morning and evening.

*I when the big crash was in progress panic quit the quercetin, kratom, lions mane first not knowing what was going on. I then removed HHC (tapered off over a couple weeks), methyl-folate, taurine, and NAC later.

  • My current stack - 100 mcg MK7 K2, 2000 mcg methyl-b12, 1000 mg vitamin C, propolis, 2 mugs of black coffee every morning and 1 more in the evening, and cistus tea in the evening (as you can see I really down sized)

CRASHES AFTER SAW PALMETTO

  1. lions mane - thinking it was ok to try to integrate it again I took a dose. I had more emotions and a jittery panicky energy immediately after taking. Which totaled what little was back in my sexual functioning and cognition.

  2. quercetin - tried to integrate one evening thinking it might help again with inflammation and might not have been a culprit, boy was I wrong. Immediately after taking it my sensory field lessened, brain completely disconnected and couldn’t feel anything but the terrible vague dread feeling, and regained sexual functioning for what that was worth at the time was lost. Completely retracted and nonfunctional again.


What initially helped me the most and what started my path to recovery.

  1. Vitamin K2 (this was integrated after a trial dose of D3 sheeps wool derived at 1000 iu which gave me some emotions back but ultimately made me much more fatigued and out of it. I immediately dropped that after a couple doses and tried K2 one afternoon. It perked me up more and gave me back more cognitive energy, sexual functioning at a baseline, and skin sensitivity. Besides the cognitive boost these other changes were very slight though, it took a long time to really get aroused and I was now at least able to feel the skin on body where previously I wasn’t able to feel much of anything.)

  2. Methyl-B12 (lost tolerance to shortly after second crash from trying lions mane, would increase the burning brain with sexual dysfunction to unmanageable extents but was given the ability to use B12 back by K2 starting at 1000 mcg. another 1000 mcg for a total of 2000 mcg was able to be tolerated after I started drinking extra coffee in the evening post cistus and osha root use unexpectedly. It’s stayed that way since and couldn’t do without at least 2000 mcg daily.)

  3. Activated Charcoal (this was pretty random but it’d bring down burning brain symptoms and helped with sensitivity and reactivity sometimes. Resulted in insomnia upon first using it and ice cold feet which eventually stopped permanently)

  4. Propolis (started using one morning as I remembered even way back that I used in my POIS days and stopped. Seemed to be good for inflammation so I took a shot in the dark and after a capsule I had more energy and a less inflamed feeling in my brain. No increases in sensitivity but everything overall was slightly better at a baseline so I kept it there)

  5. Cistus Incanus (initially boosted mood and gave me more mental clarity but also gave me insomnia at first and gave me terrible anxiety. Like the activated charcoal this eventually stopped permanently. In different states I would tend to have a more stimulant like effect or relaxing effect upon consumption with unpredictable variables)

  6. Osha root (first brought sensation back and completely cleared my mind but made me so fatigued when I’d take it that I could barely leave the house. As I recovered this eased up but reaction is still somewhat present)

  7. Extra coffee in the evening (I started drinking it again switching from yerba mate back to coffee because I felt like I was gonna die if I didn’t. Initially 2 mugs of black in the morning gave a very isolated stimulant like effect that faded with tolerance and drinking it became more comfortable every morning after that. Added the second mug of black in the evening after the cistus and osha root and accidentally found out after tolerance to the raised amount occurred that I could tolerate 2000 mcg of methyl-b12 again as I unexpectedly tried again one morning after the extra coffee in the evening.)

  8. Green tea (would have this every evening much later as I was trying the EGCG epidenetic shift thing. Would and still does make me more calm when I consume it but more clear headed the next day. Sexual functioning remained intact despite it making me feel more mellow the next day and when I drank it. I am currently not drinking it though, after my evening coffee it’s only cistus tea now.)


The vitamin D experiment roller coaster which jump started my complete recovery involving some relevant speedbump with wheatgrass and d-glucarolactone.

  1. WIP

As of today I’m still doing fine, was going to type up the rest of what I was up there soon enough but my life got really cluttered suddenly and juggling all that mental clutter with my CFS has not been a good time. It’s a “for what it’s worth” thing anyways though because what I did was pretty random, based on my experiences alone, and I’m sure everyone would need to have been in my exact position biologically for it to actually work for them too. The only thing I know is that I sparked something back online and it’s been running since normally but only with the return of POIS. I’m still being careful with what I consume though and avoiding any of the crashiest things like before.

Just an update here, still doing alright. Brain is online and “connected to itself” feeling again with sexual functioning available all the time even if I’m in the CFS 2-3 PM energy hole. Went out last night and ate a ton of delicious unhealthy food with no changes. Hair has recently started falling out normally again (never thought I’d be happy to see hair loss) so that must mean hormone levels or receptor levels are returning to normal baselines again. Don’t know what to do about the ugly mess but either shave it down to nothing and keep it there or get a wig but the solution isn’t going to be touching any hair loss drugs ever again.

I just wanted to give an update here as it’s about the weird D3 and B12 situation that mightrender the other unfinished post on what I did with it void. I was recovered at a baseline with no crashes, feeling things tactile and emotional, getting morning and occasionally spontaneous erections on a good day, but my body was missing something at a baseline like some signal was not perpetuating itself properly to make the “whole human” feeling come back online totally. I have somehow reached full recovery as of right now and I don’t know entirely what I did besides I can go over what happened.

I one day decided to see what would happen if I upped my methyl-b12 to 3000 mcg and something interesting happened. My body regained the sharpness of all senses and mechanical strength that controls flow of urine, how hard I can pull something, ect-. Though this had side effects that made me go back like emotional and cognitive blunting which I couldn’t have happening. I remember that D3when it did work did this but left everything intact. That’s when I stumbled across a form of D called califediol and pulled the trigger on it. The first day I had I took the full dose and I felt really clear headed but really emotionally blank, no drive, no sex drive either, and sedated in a weird way. BUT on the bounce back I felt better, not very much better but better in some respects to my previous baseline. So the next day I reduced my dose to half and the same thing happened down to the rebound and I felt slightly better. So then I waited a day while keeping my methyl-b12 back at 2000 mcg and I tried 1000 iu of my MCT oil vegan D3 drops and I was finally able to tolerate them! Though I had the same issue in the background with a strange sedated, flu-y feeling. I kept taking it though and nothing changed, some days later I read some people may tolerate dry forms better so I found a supplement with only dry vegan D3 in rice flour (the bestvite brand, I would later use this brand to replace my k2 also and I’m currently not consuming any additives in my supplements anymore) and that was the ticket. I was able to tolerate it and over the next few days on it felt better. Everything the methyl-b12 increase did this did better besides inducing raw mechanical physical energy to the sharp degree the methyl-b12 did.

Things weren’t quite there and something caught me by surprise later, tuna made me feel really good. Almost normal but gave me a very intense excited energy other fish or seafood didn’t. Over the next days I’d try other species but only blue or yellow fin tuna was doing this so I mostly had a week of eating large amounts of fish to try to retain this feeling. The day before yesterday I had the tuna again and it was a definite repeatable. Whatever was in it that did this flung me further into feeling even better days later. Currently as I type this I’m fully recovered. Orgasm intensity and sensation as well as reactive sex drive to what I’m attracted to is also very strong. No idea what I did but I seem to have restarted some kind of signalling cascade that once restarted again just takes care of itself that the original saw palmetto over time shut down.

Ok so I am in the final stretch here. I still have all sensation back, brain/dick connection is consistently restored, libido is normal, can feel cold sensations on my head and around my head, emotions work, personality works (unless my immune system is being stupid and annihilating my nervous system like in a POIS episode or with my MCS but that’s been an issue long before this), and anhedonia is gone.

The one issue, I’m lacking that normal energy I had on those spike doses of D3 I got at random times, one of which I attained complete normalcy for a day and then it fizzled out. I’ve now been consistently taking it at 2500 iu of the vegan dry rice flour kind I tolerate just fine. The issue is definitely in my adrenals and HPA axis and seems to be related to my adrenals not being able to pump out enough of something consistently that they still can but it’s being suppressed in some way. One thing I noticed is that I can’t shiver which was regained during those spike doses of D3 along with much faster reflexes. I dug around and decided to try a specific iodine drop supplement mentioned by someone else on here called Iosol. Will report back on the results of that when I try. Tonight I’m also going to boil some beets and drink the juice to see if that has any effect on anything as it’s never crashed anyone either.

edit - beet is absolutely terrible, had a horrible time with it but thankfully I’m fine today although a bit more lethargic. Slower but libido and all remained in one pice. I can’t find much experiences on people that used iosol in the greater pool of the net but it should come in on sunday but I don’t know when I’m gonna start using it. I am a bit worried as I have a concert that is on Monday and I hope the environment isn’t too crashy, I did feel worse after the last show I went to which was in the very beginning but that was when I still felt like absolute death 24/7.

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