Ps scaredoutofmymind the moment i crashed i quit beer (very estrogenic) weed . And i dont think i will ever drink again it messes with my head gives me big deppression about dick not working properly and weed gives me paranoia , both of them have no longer space in my life at least one thing that Pfs was good for getting rid of bad habitts
Please do not in any way shape or form try to pass off the morally defective CEOs of Merck as the makers and messengers of God’s will…
Otherwise, hang in there and stay positive! Good luck with your recovery!
Thanks mate. I didn mean to justify merck for.their wrong.doing. I think they are sons of bitches.
All I meant is that Im trying understand why such a horrible thing happened to me.
3 rd day on Dianabol 30 mg per day.
Hade couple of morning woods pretty stron I would say. I slept yesteraday 10 hrs with breaks .
Had one sexual dream wich felt really vivid.
No libido in the day.
Yesterday on the gym felt just weak eventhough that I should be feel bit more powerfull thanks to dianabol.
I dont feel like Im getting that pump like I used to on gear.
I have noticed that my ballsack dont hang as low as it used to.
I will do today more gym .
I have noticed my tinnitus gets stronger 
(( which is annoying.
Feels good.to be on juice . Another day 30 mg dianabol . Chest and triceps today I feel more pump in my body. I started tamoxifen very low.dose about 5 mg per day just to combat little gynecomastia that occurred . I know.that nolva.will decrease further libido but hopefully will reset that with Hcg and clomid later on.
Will do aboout 2 weeks on dianabol than do 3 injections of Hcg 1500 iu each along with 1 clomid 50 mg per day for 10 days than go down to 25 mg for 10 days run everything along with nolva 10 mg per day for 20 days longer than clomid and Hcg . Look up power Pct Dr Scully. will do smth like that but shorter and weeker. I dont expect.get libido straight away i might take few cycles and Pcts .
Got valerian passion flower and hoops sleep aid from Tesco 3 quid only , it helped.me.tovsleep from 8 pm till midnight than woke up got.another 2 pills at midnight and sleept with little disturbnces till 5 am , had dreams wich is.good sign that Im having REM sleep , no morning wood. Good sleep overall hopefully tonight.will be just as good.
Funny but when exercising i dont sweat almost , and I dont sweta where Male pattern baldness occurs . Only on the side of the hair. Tinituss still there .
how long did u stop propecia?
I took it for 11 days from 12 TILL 23RD October 12.
can’t really blame all your symptoms on propecia. Seems you where already in steroids. Did you take it after a cycle your T - DHT levels where probably low.
Hi I think that you might say that my system was maybe weaken by usage of anabolic steroids , however the thing is that my last cycle was almost 8 months ago and first I couldnt recover from test prop + winstrol cycle where as PCT I used only HCG and nolvadex and that was noth enough I had ED but after taking clomid for 20 days 50 mg per day thing got back to normal . I never wanted to go back to steroid as I met beautifull girl which i felt in love with . Propecia was used by my only to combat mild hairloss which occured after that last cycle. i wasnt gonna touch an more gear was fine sexuall health , and I was building muscles with creatine and whey proteins easy , had little bit of body fat but was working on it.
Stupid enough i was trying to fix one bad thing with another worst thing . So now Im back into gear and i want to use more of it . I dont want to become woman like .
i have noticed some guys have responded (recovered) after long time of use of HCG and TRT. also some guys made test for 3 adiol gluconoride levels (metabolite of intercelular DHT activity ) and some of them levels slightly rose after suplementation with Testosterone .
i havent used clomid yet properly . Maybe I will be able to jump start my system. I dont think I will be going into Armidex will try combat estrogent levels with nolva although it may kill libido, but armidex has sides Im more afraid. Im not sure if I got this right but letrozole disables enzyme for good and some people say letro will f*** you up. Im not sure if armidex unbidns from the enzyme. Im affraid to play with enzymes as this is what got us into this… Hormones and enzymes are 2 different storries…
I can see acne showing up I will take dianabol only for 20 days as probably I would prefer something with less sides … like primobolan , or anavar…
Im glad to report that after coming back from gym and having a very heavy intensivity trening back and biceps started to fool around with my girlfriend. I was so horny like never before . My dick was standing upwards where ussually is pointing straight or.little bit.down. It was hard like a rock. Makes me.think i can feel improvement coming to me… So far the only thing Im doing is dianabol 30 mg and i have increased nolva from 5 mg to 10 mg . Sleep is.much better tinnitus still there maybe a bit less but.still noticable. I have noticed if.I masturbate im more likely to have morning wood more likely than if I dont. Testicles became even smaller due to extra exogenus testosterone. I dont have spontanous erections yet but it felt good.to have one with my gf like today. I blieve i will be making progress. Got in touch with my suplier will start cycle from April primobolan + dianabol. Just the.one like Arnold used to do… . I will report if anything more.
Oh almost forgot i have started to drink flaxseed it helped with poo pallets ( constipation) and digestion great deal
That’s a good sign, man! Just keep believing you can make it through this and you will. 
Thanks bro . Just like you said the more I believe I can make it the more improvements I see. On the begining I had no hope was suicidal , felt like I had nothing to live for . Hard training took my mind of it. I know that time and believing in success are major things that will contribute to better health. I think it is.important not to drink alcohol . Try to eat healthy . I will report more good news hopefully. Praise the Lord .
The only thing I dont understand is that FDA banned steroids and pro hormones but.aproved such a shit drug for.hair loss. They either dont know or they dont want to know how this drug is poisonus. They should only use it as a rat poison.
Yeah, while I wouldn’t say our issues are psychological by any stretch of the imagination, I do have a newfound respect for how much the mind can control the body. I noticed my first improvements came when I was finally able to chill out and stay positive. I haven’t even started lifting yet. I’m sure that will help a lot as well.
I have added 30 mg of Halodrol ( designer pro hormone) and reduced dianabol to 20 mg from 30 mg . Next week i will cut out Totally dianabol increase Halodrol to 60 mg per day. I have now quite good morning erections , they go away when I qake up. Not really spontanous erections . I asked my Gf to make me hard yesterday to see whethear the lenght has decreased and good news that it is probably still the same maybe 1 cm difference , not sure but probably is still the same erection when good aroused is.hard and stiff just like tje good old days. However erection is more due to stimulation rather than libido I feel like i dont need to cum and I dont want to anyway. I want to see if abstinence from masturbation can
increase the urge to have sex. I still can erect upon thought i find it very hard. Im not there yet but i see improvements. Also today on my 30 minute cardio i was swetaing really good. Im happy about this . Before i almost didnt sweat. I monitor my gums , no obvious change. Skin bit more oiler due gear. 2 weeks more and I will start Pct. 3 times Hcg 1500 iu rum with clomid and nolva. I will not use armidex as im afraid it can kill yoir libido if you lower estrogen to low .
Yesterday was Valentines day not sure if this is hdrol or dbol dooing it but i suspect them being behing recent quick improvement i was so hard yesterday and erection wouldnt go away like after viagra or something actually erection qualoty was 110 % beter than pre fin i m feeling libido more and more . Training, gear , positive attitude no drink alkohol no smoke are for me the things to aid me. I havent masturbate in like 10 days or something but i dont want to ejaculate as i think this is also helping me build up my libido and horniness. Today the say right after work big libido kissing and this time i really.wanted to cum . We dont have sex before marriage.but i know i would be soo hard. Im very happy for the big.increase in libido , hope i can keep gains when going off.the gear and doing Pct. I still have problems with nose very dry congested and lossing sense of smell during day , tinnitus still there. We have noticed with my Gf that right after starting Hdrol the redness on my ball sack clears the skins becomes more withe like the rest of the penis like something is clearing up in the.scrotum.
I think if finasteride is an anti androgen I need to put androgens in my body. It makes sense the question is will my body produce androgens and respond to them in the same way like it used to . The.question for.me also is how to get rid of the tinnitus , congested nose , ocasional pins and needless in the limbs. I have a big urge to mastrurbate today as my gf is in work and I could get away with that but im not going to do it as i think it will be counterproductive. I will report futher . Hopefully only improvements. Thanks god this web site exists and i could stop this f***** drug after 11 pils . I am sorry for people who took it longer and have bigger sides than me. Dont loose hope. There are people who are recovering from this . My tinnitus is terrible today . Hopefully neurological system can readjust and repair itself. The biggest . Testosterone made me feel close to beeing normal again . Im supptised my hair is not as oily at all and not itchy like it used to be on gear ,
What do you mean by “gear” ?
Gear means anabolic steroids , or anything with androgenic/ anabolic activity like testosterone .