Hey guys,
I’m very much appreciative of you posts, research advice, analysis and revisions to your own treatment regimens. Truly.
Having said this, and having sampled many of the posted treatment plans for methylation pathways, TRT, supplementation recommendations, vitamins and supplement recommendations… I’m reaching a point of actually being fearful and lost in the abundance of information…
I have purchased nearly EVERY SINGLE ITEM listed which was either recommended or experimented with on this board.
The current count of bottles of ‘vitamins or supplements or creams’ comes to total of 46, yes that’s FORTY SIX bottles of pills which I just counted in my cabinet. ALL of which I have hoped would provide some benefit to my recovery.
This does not include the Protien powders, or addional T supplements or the previously purchased and tried supplements over the past 4 years which didn’t prove to be beneficial.
The reason I post on this thread is not to discount our dimminish any potential help from the incredible research and testing from anyone else, but only to express my own frustration with having tried soooooo many recommendations and I’m still struggling with these issues:
Major Depression.
Extreme sadness over my recent divorce.
Inability to be happy or joyful.
Loss of confidence or feeling like a real man.
Inability to be willing fully social.
Inability to lose the stubborn belly fat.
Struggle to add muscle even after having a workout track record of 70 days in the past 5 months.
And continuing phases of extreme fatigue which makes me sleep till 10am or even 1pm in the afternoon. (but this could be considered a positive compared to the 4 or 5hrs I could sleep last year).
Now for the sex part… I’m actually improving in this area but only evident from masturbation. Once I knew my marriage was over, I reduced and ultimately stopped doing this for a number of reasons. But essentially, I think it’s possible that I could perform on demand, however, it’s the remaining side effects which have not only captivated my mind, heart and soul, but have reduced me to being an invaluable, worthless, unwanted and undesirable man.
I’ve been living on the bottom in an existence that nobody would want. I’ve had many thoughts of ending it all and struggle with why I should continue to fight and keep trying all of the things advised on this site. I’m having a really hard time believing there is an end or a solution to this suffering. The only, and I mean ONLY thing, which has kept me alive, is that I have faith that there is a GOD and that all of this suffering is for a reason. I just don’t know what the reason is, nor do I know how my life or struggle is supposed to benefit anyone else on this planet.
From within each experiment, methylation pathway, TRT plan, workout and exercise, vitamin or supplement routine, there are constant revisions, updates, changes and feedback on each plan. So HOW THE HELL AM I TO KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS WORKING AND WHAT IS NOT WORKING???
Is it even possible for someone to post a KNOWN and beneficial regimen for treating certain side effects from PROPECIA to an area on this site which can be accessed and relied upon without having to read through hundreds of posts of various opinions and alterations from the poster over time???
Lastly, please know that I am truly greatful and thankful for the incredibly helpful data, information and attempts to report results. I don’t mean to offend anyone, only that I am currently quite frustrated. I am entering my 5th year of recovery from Propecia after having taken this poison for 7 years straight. From 2003 to 2010, and discovering why I have lost everything in 2012.
What have I lost?
My wife
My two kids
My large home on 2.26 acres in Poway CA
Everything I’ve worked for over the past 22 years
My Job
My career
My character
My reputation
My friends and family respect and love
My hope for any possible future to change what has happened
And my own confidence, trust or belief that I can do anything about it
I’m not giving up yet, but I’m seriously losing hope.