TL;DR at the bottom
read the EDIT at bottom for my first sex related LSD story
English is my third language so excuse my bad grammar sometimes.
I have sexual anhedonia,
hard to get proper erection,
low penile temperature even while sexual intercourse (especially head of penis),
no penis-brain connection,
orgasms without sensation(sometimes better, sometimes worse but never as good as it used to be)
These are just the ones I can name from the top of my head. I think I literally have the whole spectrum of sexual sides and I feel like they hit me particularly hard. and I got neurological ones too (anhedonia, depression, more)
because of finasteride (I only took it for a month when I was 17 and naive)
I’ve had it for years now. Years of not enjoying anything related to sex, but I still masturbate every couple of days. I don’t know why, maybe out of routine. I just do it. I never really get horny and then go look for porn like I used to. I go look at porn first to just get kind of “horny” (no actual stimulation, feel emotionless while I do it) and jerk one out. all routine. My brain thinks it will get something better than it’s actually getting.I probably subconsciously remember what jerking off used to be like before PFS and that’s what I’m chasing probably. I could really live without it. When I ejaculate I almost feel nothing in my penis and my brain.
Now to the actual story.
DISCLAIMER!!!: I DO NOT RECOMMEND TAKING LSD TO HELP WITH YOUR SEXUAL ANHEDONIA, LSD CAN BE DAMAGING FOR SOME PEOPLE!!!
With that said: I took 150ug of LSD and had a really bad experience. Unfortunately I had a bad trip.
At some point I fell asleep and the next day, when I was “sober” (still didn’t feel sober of course, but no more direct “tripping” effects from the LSD), I decided to jerk off to some porn and I couldn’t believe what it felt like. again: wasn’t tripping anymore at this point, this was in the all in the morning after the trip, I could still feel some effects but not the extent I did in the evening before
It was actually m-i-n-d-b-l-o-w-i-n-g (can’t find a better phrase to describe it lol. I was actually baffled). It felt like I was cured of all sexual anhedonia I was plagued with for the past years. I’ll go a bit into detail.
I had it all back:
- penile sensitivity felt like it increased 5 fold. It was intense I’m not even joking (almost couldn’t jerk off 10 seconds at a time because I’d ejaculate lol) My penis was really warm and I don’t know how to say it …I just felt all the warmth in my dick and all the sensitivity… really don’t know how to word this… even a bit to sensitive at the head!!. (never thought I’d say anything like “too sensitive” in correlation with my dick ever again lol) but I wasn’t mad about it.
- brain-penis connection was finally back (really important!!!), porn did something for me it hasn’t done in a long time. I felt aroused and I could finally get horny again. Not the superficial type of horny you get when you just jerk off because it’s your nightly ritual. I felt like I was 16 year old me again, high off my ass, the way I was switching from video to video lol. Just really stimulating, can’t put it into words. I felt like an animal lol. just felt extremely fucking horny again since a LOOOONG time. like damn. really imaginative, really awesome. It felt like my hand was almost moving by it self, I legit couldn’t control my self.
- extremely pleasurable orgasm (I’m saying extremely for a reason here. I literally felt EVERYTHING, like when I didn’t have my condition at all. I didn’t think I’d feel a pleasurable orgasm ever again in my life.) I felt the orgasm in my dick and my brain ( important!!)
- rock hard, big, warm erection my dick looked the biggest in a long time. absolutely no problem maintaining an erection. It worked by it self. I could just think about something stimulating, like a naked girl, and instantly I could feel getting a erection. No need to even touch my self. I could get a boner with thoughts. I was gassed. still am.
- Libido higher than in years. had sexual thoughts again. Went back to back.
Everything just felt right. Like there was actually nothing wrong with me. I couldn’t believe it. Still can’t.
Some bad news: I don’t know if I will want to try to recreate that experience again. The risk of having another bad trip on LSD is not worth a day of these orgasms. I think… I don’t know.
I have to remember that these feelings don’t last. Orgasms can’t make you happy forever but one too many bad trips can mess you up for a while.
I’m making LSD sound prober bad right now… I want everyone to be safe I’m kinda biased because of my bad trip. I shouldn’t have tripped in the headspace I was in the first place. But I feel OK now.
Do your own research and if you feel like taking it make sure you feel safe, are in a good set and setting, etc. then take it. I know some of you are now interested in trying LSD but if you really want to take it. DO YOUR OWN RESEARCH. I don’t want to demonize it but I also don’t want some young kids jumping heads first into an LSD trip without proper knowledge on the drug So yeah…
my orgasms felt the same as they used to the next day but I wasn’t suprised. I was more grateful that I could experience this feeling again in such a long time rather than being mad that it hasn’t completely cured me.
It also gave me something else and I know this sounds corny but:
there is still the possibilty of pleasurable fullfiling orgasms (and I believe for everyone). I’m not unsavably, permanently fucked like I thought. I thought I’d never experience a normal orgasm again. But I did. and you best believe I jerked off as often as I could that day. Every time was incredible but of course always a bit less than the time before. But the first time was really just… fucking hell…
Kinda regret not banging a hooker that day LOL. Sex would have been so amazing probably.
(sorry for being so descriptive btw, but I hope some of you understand my excitement, can’t get that feeling across another way. I’m really not over-exaggerating here.)
Anyone got similar experiences? Anyone know why that even happened. Have you ever experienced this? I want this forever for god sake.
SCIENTIST DEVELOP SOME SHIT THAT MAKES YOU FEEL THIS WAY WITHOUT HAVING TO TRIP OFF LSD. MY BRAIN ISN’T MADE FOR LSD.
DISCLAIMER AGAIN: WITH THIS POST I’M NOT RECOMMENDING ANYONE TO TAKE LSD.
EDIT: I forgot to mention this is the second time I’ve tripped on LSD and had positive sexual effects but the first time I jerked off while I was still fully tripping on 100ug. But back then I didn’t know what exactly was wrong (PFS) with me, so I didn’t reflect as much as I did upon this time.
I vaguely remember that it was realllly nice also and really similar to the time I described in this huge text just now, but it got a bit blurry. This new LSD experience kind of refreshed memories from that old jerk off session. I can remember that I felt really aroused by the porn I was watching (that shit really doesn’t happen to me normally, I swear.) but I was also kind of weirded out by the porn acting. I could see all the fakeness because I was just full on tripping on LSD haha. I remember that vanilla porn got me really aroused. And the fetish stuff even more.(nowadays I don’t really experience that anymore, every porn feels the same)I remember I was watching completlely random bondage videos (and that stuff isn’t even on my fetish list) but I liked it so much I just kept watching the whole video. I even still have a clear Image in my had from that video. I was really invested. i don’t have that anymore (nowadays I just want to get it over with) but I can say that was my favorite sexual experience I had while suffering from PFS, right after the one this text is orignally about.
The thing that made it even more special the second time I was tripping was that additionally I hadn’t jerked of like 5 days prior. The first time I was just in the normal daily routine. I have often not masturbated for many days and then when I jerked it again, let me tell you it doesn’t feel the same as I described.
Had sexual anhedonia, penile numbness, low libido, no penis-brain connection, orgasms without much sensation(sometimes better, sometimes worse but never as good as it used to be) because of a anti hairloss medication called finasteride for YEARS.
Took 150 uq of LSD and the day after the trip I had an amazing orgasm that felt like I had no sexual anhedonia AT ALL. felt like I was 16 again, high off weed and just jerking it like there’s nothing else in the world. Everything was back to normal for that day. The feeling subsided but it gives me a feeling that there is still hope for us.