6 days now without the “social cringe” that made it uncomfortable to look people in the eye. I can safely say I am cured from that now, after ~9.5 years.
Yesterday for a hot minute I had zero perceivable symptoms, and could interact, talk, walk, and laugh normally. I could feel everything fully, including how beautiful the day was and how nice the wind was blowing. I told myself, “I am in paradise.”
I turned on some music and was stunned by how amazing it felt. I thought, this is absolute euphoria. But, my definition of euphoria has suffered severely since Invega. I can remember that before, listening to music was about the most enjoyable thing in the world to me, and I could completely forget how screwed I was from Lexapro if I laid down and closed my eyes while listening to it. This “euphoria” is something I used to experience every day.
Then POIS in the form of physical and mental fatigue suddenly hit me from an-O-mia that morning. I was snapped back to the reality that I am still far from the finish line.
Today was similar.
I think this is my new normal.
I am planning on TRT …