That is absolutely not what happened with your participation in the study, at all. Erik was always scheduled in to travel to Hamburg - he’s a severe patient who was affected quickly, an ideal case - and he paid for his own expenses. Saying he replaced you is inaccurate.
You not participating had little to do with the expense involved - we’ve covered expenses for several other patients in Europe - and more to do with your attitude.
I had told you when you first applied that you would need to pay for your own expenses, then we would reimburse you. As the date of travel was approaching, I attempted to contact you with no reply, several times, before you did reply and said you had a family emergency. Eventually, you sent me a series of emails saying you had found accommodation and flights, and needed the money in advance. I agreed.
At the last minute, you told me the amount had increased. I honestly would have been fine with this, but then I had heard from several people that you were questioning the purpose of the study in other groups, saying you were going to “cut yourself off from PFS Network” because you didn’t see “any special initiative” on our part. This was while at the same time asking me for more money to travel.
It was clear to me at that point you were not serious about participating at all, which would have jeopardised the study had we not found a suitable replacement in the three weeks you left me. Luckily, we did.
I have no idea why you’ve decided to come here and lie today. I was nothing but polite to you throughout our emails, even after I found out you were practically insulting our efforts to others.