I lost my career too. A very prestigious, hard to get career. I was making over $100,000 or about 85,000 euros. I lost my fiance who I credit with saving my life… she stayed with my through most my crash but eventually even she gave up and moved on. And then to top it all off as if I hadn’t been through enough already, my former employer had the NSA put a no warrant wiretap on my phone (I worked for the United States federal government) because they must have been concerned I was going to go crazy on Merck or somebody. So of course after 2 months of the wiretap which I didn’t know was there at the time… I said some angry, semi violent stuff and our police state government decided to frame me for a crime so they could “control” me. I spent a year in solitary confinement while they tried to force me to plea out to a crime I didn’t commit… just so they could put me on probation (which is another way of controlling me) finally I just gave up and plead out because the whole thing was “fixed” and the judge wouldn’t reduce my bond from $500,000 so my family could not bail me out… because the NSA was manipulating the judge too. But hey im still here and honestly even after all this I feel better than I did during the whole first year off propecia. I still have sexual and fertility issues but I’m nowhere near as depressed as I was and my insomnia and anxiety is also much reduced.
Actually I’m thinking about just leaving the United States entirely. The country is becoming a Orwellian police state like Nazi Germany (no offense). You can’t say mean violent things on the phone or Facebook even if your just blowing off steam or being sarcastic because the government has gone bat-shit crazy over terrorism and the NSA will send the FBI after you. Not too mention that American culture is just quite frankly… vulgar… I’m a 4th generation American and I know no other way of describing it. The people here are so dumb overall and our country is seriously going down the drain fast. I would gladly trade my US citizenship for EU, Canadian, or Australian citizenship… maybe one of you guys in the EU could tell me how to go about doing this… or connect me with a company that would hire a former U.S. federal agent and sponser me for a work visa. Sounds drastic but I’ve been completely betrayed by almost everyone I know in the United States.
You know i dont understand one Thing…Bin Laden has killed many People on 11.September…That was sad and Shit, so the USA responded and try to bomb all Afganistan in the Air…So Merck killed many many more People as Binladen in USA and what happend??Nothing…FUCKING NOTHING
Because when Merck kills people its not broadcast on live t.v. like 9/11 was.
I tell you now the usual Day of a Guy (me) with Full Blown PFS and why i am sick of it…
I wake up on the morning and the first Thing in my Mind is PFS.
Yes not what i should do today?? only PFS…Of course i am never refreshed after Sleep
I go to the Bathroom and dont look at the Mirror, i am shower my Body and dont look one time in the Mirror…
I try to take a Piss, but my Urine stream is like from a 120 year old.
I try to take a Shit but it is impossible some days because i am constipated constantly.
I have no Job aynmore because of PFS.
I have no Girlfriend anymore because of PFS
I have no Friends any more because of PFS, so i know i am all the day alone at Home and waiting for my Parents. (NICE WITH 29 Years old)
I dont can excersise anymore because Propecia has atrophied my Muscles and i dont even have Muscles anymore to build and fill.
I f i dare to look in the Mirror i see a ugly Piece of Shit, with Wrinkles and Fatloss like a Aidspatient in the Face.
I try not to touch my Dick because it makes me depressing how shrunken and arophied it is.
I dont can sit too long on a Chair because my Ass is hurting because of the Muscle loss.
My Bones are hurting if i try to stand up from my Bed.Because i have Boneloss.
I dont can enjoy TV anymore because, because my Vision is fucked since PFS.
I dont can enjoy Silence anymore because the Tinnitus is killing me.
I dont can enjoy Food anymore because it makes me Brainfog.
I think every Second about PFS and feel every Second like PFS.
I have nothing to do and i am like a 5 years old boy who lives at Home with his Parents, but i am feeling like a 90 year old sick Women.
My Fatigue allows me to do nothing.I am weak like a Half dead man.
I am asexual now i dont look at Girls anymore.
I am thinking every day about suicide, but then i am ashamed of myself being such a Pussy who dont have the BALLS (and i dont have Balls anymore) to do this.
And in the evening i am happy to go to sleep because this is my only Hobby and only Relief from this Mess.
Every Night i am dreaming about my old Life or how my Life would be without to be trapped in my own posioned Body.
And everything of this Things was the Opposite before PFS.NICE LIFE ISN IT???
And the Best of this Story is i have paid Money for all this Mess to happen.
Like this TOPIC say IM SICK OF IT!!!
ı destroyed my lıfe wıth 4 haır pılls. I look lıke alıen . Constant and so paınful sebhoraıc dermatıtıs. No emotıons, chıld body, dead penıs and balls, stupıd braın , half blınd eyes, half deaf ears, tınnıtus. How can a drug do thıs wıth 4 pılls man?
I do not accept a lıfe such lıke thıs. I wıll waıt studıes and then ı end my lıfe. I dont want to belıeve ım goıng to hell because my murderer ıs not me, ıts fuckıng son of a bıtch merck.
Im so sad frıends. I mean ım really so sad. I can suffer cancer wıth thıs sadness. I dont do anythıng to deserve thıs. I do not do any bad thıngs ın my lıfe. SO SAD man SO SAD. I cant thınkıng lıve lıke thıs 40 years or more. 40 years wıth pfs. I rather die only one day ınstead of dyıng everyday. Shıt man ım stıll almost a chıld . Im 21 years old man 8 years ago ı was playıng wıth my car toys man wtf how ı crush the realty of lıfe lıke thıs.
i am sick of it that so many Gus died becuase of this Posion.
I am sick of it that we have every Week 5- 6 new Members.
It goes darker and darker with this Propecia Shit
Propecia took my soul, i’m an existing body which at this moment in life feel I have no purpose or reason to go on - but I will because i’m holding out or at least trying to make a recovery god knows how long for. Don’t even like my personality anymore I seem to be bitter about people, friends and family leading ‘normal’ lives thinking they got it easy but it is what it is…
I sent you a PM. I’m from Germany too. Please send my an answer. I saw you did the survey, so maybe you are still going on with your PFS existing, or you have a live again?!
He hasn’t signed in for almost 3 years so you may not get an answer.