Thank you for letting us know brother hang in there @Junkieasteride
If you had feelings like that please remember take an ice cold shower first.
No need to apologise man. So glad you’re ok. 
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Thank goodness you’re still alive. You have to appreciate the fact that 0) You matter to people, you are loved and appreciated. 1) You don’t necessarily have PFS yet as you have just stopped taking the drug for two months, 2)Even if you do, time is on your side and most people get better with time, and 3) The people you are corresponding with and the stories you read are a biased sample of the worst cases. People who get better or recover stop posting. Many of us including myself have worsened themselves through supplements and medications.
Your first line of defense against your condition should always be radical patience, self-care and self-love expressed through mindfulness, good stress management, meditation, and leading a healthy lifestyle. It seems awfully bromidic but frankly I wouldn’t still be posting here if I didn’t play around with supplements last year. At least give it a few more months before trying anything else. And when you do want to try research that decision for at least a month or two.
If you havent already, you have to take this time to develop yourself as a person. Learn to separate negative thoughts and feelings from your self identity and reality. They are not who you are (well partly it’s because you’re withdrawing from fin) but how you choose to react to them is up to you. The things that have transpired are not your fault and you do not deserve to suffer, but you do have control over how much you suffer.
YES. We want you here on this earth and doing and experiencing life and good things. Drugs are gonna keep you from that. We PFS-ers have a different kind of life, but we are here and we can do the best we can, not comparing ourselves to others. Best of luck. Use this time “away” to get calm and get off the addictions. Hugs.
Good you’re back bro but stay the fuck away from all the drugs even weed.
Ouch! I was told by an EMT that the moments after receiving Narcan is the most miserable and angry they have ever seen anyone. Definitely had to have been a rough experience for you for a few hours.
Good to hear you are alive and thank you much for going through the effort of checking back in to let everyone know you are alive.
Yeah, I think it’s entirely possible to live an okay life despite this condition.
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Great to see your still alive. No need to apologise at all i would say the majority of us can relate. You seem a lot more rationale and settled. Stay away from any further experimentation. The storm clouds will pass and you will be able to get a life back. Youve also made some positive statements which is great to see. Giant steps well done
To be honest guys I’ve had internet access since I was allowed here but I had no idea what to say or do after making my first post ughhhh Plus i was doing my best to keep my mind off PFS until I’m allowed out and back with my family (tomorrow) but I just couldn’t take it anymore I had to let you guys know
I feel so guilty because I could have let you know sooner!
Trust me tho I’ve definitely been sectioned
It’s actually not been toooo bad dare I say. Saw a psych etc it’s just been a place to focus my mind on what’s important.
As for the Narcan my friend idk no reaction like that for me?? Is that because I’m not addicted tho no withdrawal to enter?
Love u boys sorry for not logging on sooner
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More shots that just make this impossibly elaborate to be fake
Have to own a lot of safes and type way too much I cba with lmao also own a weirdly shaped room with 4 beds identical and blah blah hopefully this is guud proof
Just because understandably I’d be skeptical too also its a nice little tour of what it was like here for me haha since I think my final day is tomorrow
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So you are off cocaine and meth? How can we say that your troubles are PFS related if you are meth and cocaine addicted? Serious question.
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The only joke is when you hide in shame about your problems. Praise yourself for being brave and reaching out. Keep doing it in life and people will be there to help you.
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I had an inkling you were still alive keep your head up fella- I too am locked up in a ward been here for a week now. I have my own room it looks like you’re sharing?
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Good to see your still here man I thought that was it
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I don’t understand how does get locked up for cocaine and meth? Using it? Going over and entering psychosis? I understand that but I mean the last message I posted before getting sectioned was pretty legible no? Does it read to you like a psychotic person on a bender? Ive never been in psychosis although ive gotten close on numerous occasions, I still know how to handle my drugs unfortunately. Not stay up for days.
The only reason I cant leave rn is because they believed I might hurt myself/kill myself not until I quit drugs they know i take drugs but they aren’t very focused on that and I made sure to tell them about Pfs myself and thankfully they haven’t dismissed it. Tomorrow I’m seeing the doctor with my family (who now is a bit more understanding of pfs) and I think they’re ready to let me go I shall have to keep you updated.
I never want the experience of waking up like that again I felt completely confused (not miserable or angry really) and obviously in shock with the situation lmao then to be unable to see my friends and family apart from specific times of a week is really really lame
It’s my own room friend theres just four beds four cupboards and four safes for some reason lol idk if they ever put people in rooms together I think everyone has their own room but they do have enough space to put us in rooms together I suppose.
Yes. Maybe not in a strict medical sense, but you sound like someone who is heavily dependent on drugs and are experiencing a mental breakdown. To what extend anything of this has to do with PFS is anybodies guess, certainly not exclusively.
Go look into what delusions and hallucinations are… Also maybe practise a little more compassion? I already feel like shit I know I’m a piece of shit drug taker who should’ve probably succeeded because honestly living just gives me the chance to fuck everyone’s head more no? (Yeah I still hate myself for using drugs no one is gonna be proud of that) But that still doesn’t change that I fucked up by writing the post (concerning so many people when I should have never been considering suicide in the first place)
I still feel guilty for writing it I know I’ve pissed people off and made them worried I know I’m failing to amend. That’s all I wanted to do amend I couldn’t take it anymore I was avoiding thr forum initially after getting sectioned cus I was tending to others I had concerned a lot.
Now I guess Imjust trying to do my best through all of this and I know my best is shit and I know its not enough and I guess even now I still look like a piece of shit to.some of you which is sad but it’s to be expected it’s all my fault I hold no I’ll will on those people I hold the I’ll will on myself
Plus do you not think even if I didn’t post on a forum I wouldn’t hold this ill will on myself and look at my self as a piece of shit for breaking down to my mom and friends before getting sectioned either way? Because I kinda do lol I told everyone I was gonna suicide and my friends didn’t know where I was I had been telling me friends for weeks how I felt so it hasn’t been easy on the people around me. I’ve been holding a lot of guilt about everything lately I just put the pfs forum to the back of my mind at first and have regrets about doing that now because its led people to worry longer than need be. I need to focus on the future more though and be more forgiving to myself even though it’s hard and yes sometimes I can get a little dreary and self hate but that’s just life I don’t think that’s a good idea to permanently avoid the forum because that happens abyway
Now bed time for me I’m feeling sleepy 
I dont think any caretaker responsible for you would recommend writing for hours on this forum. It has little benefit to you.
I only saw the post when you put Yes. Rest was added later…
Your point is confusing? It’s not good enough I’m at a mental ward it has to be specifically proven I’m here cus of pfs for you? Otherwise I could be here for no reason… yeah ok… I get it. I cant really prove that? I suppose I could grab a doc and be like um can we rundown my case real quick and film it lmao? I don’t know. You tell me what to do? I don’t really think I’m in a position where thaysproveable? Yes my mental health is bad. But teo months ago I loved life. I didn’t have pfs then… I’ve also used lots of drugs before in the past and didn’t have pfs then… no mental ward.
I can safely say I wouldn’t be here if I never got pfs… you’re free to believe me or not shame I cant convince you otherwise but I understand skepticism.
Just because you make me feel like shit once (no offence) or something doesn’t mean the other members haven’t made me not feel so alone during all this… I hate the feeling of aloneness of PFS and uoure trying to push me away from a community which understands it? I’m so confused as to your motive or want from me? To leave?