I'm alive got sectioned under mental health act

[Junkieasteride]

To be honest guys I’ve had internet access since I was allowed here but I had no idea what to say or do after making my first post ughhhh Plus i was doing my best to keep my mind off PFS until I’m allowed out and back with my family (tomorrow) but I just couldn’t take it anymore I had to let you guys know

I feel so guilty because I could have let you know sooner!

Trust me tho I’ve definitely been sectioned

It’s actually not been toooo bad dare I say. Saw a psych etc it’s just been a place to focus my mind on what’s important.

As for the Narcan my friend idk no reaction like that for me?? Is that because I’m not addicted tho no withdrawal to enter?

Love u boys sorry for not logging on sooner

Edit:

More shots that just make this impossibly elaborate to be fake

Have to own a lot of safes and type way too much I cba with lmao also own a weirdly shaped room with 4 beds identical and blah blah hopefully this is guud proof

Just because understandably I’d be skeptical too also its a nice little tour of what it was like here for me haha since I think my final day is tomorrow

[Jaime]

@Junkieasteride I’m glad to see you are okay, man. We’re all gonna make it

[pvdl]

So you are off cocaine and meth? How can we say that your troubles are PFS related if you are meth and cocaine addicted? Serious question.

[Andrew35]

@Junkieasteride

Im sorry to this community for being such a joke and making you concerned,

The only joke is when you hide in shame about your problems. Praise yourself for being brave and reaching out. Keep doing it in life and people will be there to help you.

[Papasmurf]

I had an inkling you were still alive keep your head up fella- I too am locked up in a ward been here for a week now. I have my own room it looks like you’re sharing?

[AaronF]

Good to see your still here man I thought that was it

[Junkieasteride]

I don’t understand how does get locked up for cocaine and meth? Using it? Going over and entering psychosis? I understand that but I mean the last message I posted before getting sectioned was pretty legible no? Does it read to you like a psychotic person on a bender? Ive never been in psychosis although ive gotten close on numerous occasions, I still know how to handle my drugs unfortunately. Not stay up for days.

The only reason I cant leave rn is because they believed I might hurt myself/kill myself not until I quit drugs they know i take drugs but they aren’t very focused on that and I made sure to tell them about Pfs myself and thankfully they haven’t dismissed it. Tomorrow I’m seeing the doctor with my family (who now is a bit more understanding of pfs) and I think they’re ready to let me go I shall have to keep you updated.

I never want the experience of waking up like that again I felt completely confused (not miserable or angry really) and obviously in shock with the situation lmao then to be unable to see my friends and family apart from specific times of a week is really really lame

[Junkieasteride]

It’s my own room friend theres just four beds four cupboards and four safes for some reason lol idk if they ever put people in rooms together I think everyone has their own room but they do have enough space to put us in rooms together I suppose.

[pvdl]

@Junkieasteride

Does it read to you like a psychotic person on a bender?

Yes. Maybe not in a strict medical sense, but you sound like someone who is heavily dependent on drugs and are experiencing a mental breakdown. To what extend anything of this has to do with PFS is anybodies guess, certainly not exclusively.

[Junkieasteride]

Go look into what delusions and hallucinations are… Also maybe practise a little more compassion? I already feel like shit I know I’m a piece of shit drug taker who should’ve probably succeeded because honestly living just gives me the chance to fuck everyone’s head more no? (Yeah I still hate myself for using drugs no one is gonna be proud of that) But that still doesn’t change that I fucked up by writing the post (concerning so many people when I should have never been considering suicide in the first place)

I still feel guilty for writing it I know I’ve pissed people off and made them worried I know I’m failing to amend. That’s all I wanted to do amend I couldn’t take it anymore I was avoiding thr forum initially after getting sectioned cus I was tending to others I had concerned a lot.

Now I guess Imjust trying to do my best through all of this and I know my best is shit and I know its not enough and I guess even now I still look like a piece of shit to.some of you which is sad but it’s to be expected it’s all my fault I hold no I’ll will on those people I hold the I’ll will on myself

Plus do you not think even if I didn’t post on a forum I wouldn’t hold this ill will on myself and look at my self as a piece of shit for breaking down to my mom and friends before getting sectioned either way? Because I kinda do lol I told everyone I was gonna suicide and my friends didn’t know where I was I had been telling me friends for weeks how I felt so it hasn’t been easy on the people around me. I’ve been holding a lot of guilt about everything lately I just put the pfs forum to the back of my mind at first and have regrets about doing that now because its led people to worry longer than need be. I need to focus on the future more though and be more forgiving to myself even though it’s hard and yes sometimes I can get a little dreary and self hate but that’s just life I don’t think that’s a good idea to permanently avoid the forum because that happens abyway

Now bed time for me I’m feeling sleepy

[pvdl]

I dont think any caretaker responsible for you would recommend writing for hours on this forum. It has little benefit to you.

[Junkieasteride]

I only saw the post when you put Yes. Rest was added later…

Your point is confusing? It’s not good enough I’m at a mental ward it has to be specifically proven I’m here cus of pfs for you? Otherwise I could be here for no reason… yeah ok… I get it. I cant really prove that? I suppose I could grab a doc and be like um can we rundown my case real quick and film it lmao? I don’t know. You tell me what to do? I don’t really think I’m in a position where thaysproveable? Yes my mental health is bad. But teo months ago I loved life. I didn’t have pfs then… I’ve also used lots of drugs before in the past and didn’t have pfs then… no mental ward.

I can safely say I wouldn’t be here if I never got pfs… you’re free to believe me or not shame I cant convince you otherwise but I understand skepticism.

[Junkieasteride]

Just because you make me feel like shit once (no offence) or something doesn’t mean the other members haven’t made me not feel so alone during all this… I hate the feeling of aloneness of PFS and uoure trying to push me away from a community which understands it? I’m so confused as to your motive or want from me? To leave?

[pvdl]

They are not helping you. They are hurting you by encouraging you to continue to post on the internet. Misery loves company, and the road to hell is paved with good intentions. My opinion. Follow what professionals present in person are telling you. I guarantee you that posting walls of text on this forum is not part of it.

[Junkieasteride]

Idk dude ive received lots of good advice I think it’s my fault for no listening. I don’t think they’re hurting me It really helps to think there are people out there battling this too.

I often open this page when I start to downward spiral about pfs and sometimes it helps to remember I’m not the only person experiencing certain things plus there are certain things that can be done. I definitely won’t be posting as often as my distraught phase since I need to be fighting pfs as much I can now but hey I’m still in the ward on my phone waiting for sleeping meds to put me sleep what not browse here and post a little lol for like 30 min to 60 at night that ain’t that bad

Professionals are telling me things I can plan on in the future (which I do fortunately now and a few things I wanna do) and avoiding certain thought patterns (Ill always be shit at this f u psychs) etc. And to keep myself distracted with activities (going start seeing friends and dad more rather than bordering self in room). No harm in using a forum before bed my friend it doesn’t run contradictory to their advice

But let it be known. I respect your advice and appreciate the input.

[sg8627]

I didn’t even read the entire post but I will now

I’m just glad you’re alive man
Let’s keep it that way, ay?

It’s low for all of us right now and seems bleak
But we have time and hope on our side
Let’s all hold out long enough to see a treatment/cure

I’m really glad your ok man

[bunny88]

You don’t have to explain yourself to people, this condition has proven to be enough for many people to work themselves in a deep depression, even though coming down from meth won’t help. I also hate accusations from family that being online is making me worse, I would be so much worse feeling all alone. I’m the same as you. When I’m in despair, I come on here for support and try to only write positive posts to keep others from tipping.

[Junkieasteride]

Thanks dude! Hope you are well too. It took the absolute fear of realising what was happening after the shock of a narcan kicking in (at first I didn’t even really know what happened or what was around me etc) once that had settled to make me realise what the fuck I’d just done to make me realise yeah I have a lot to live for.

It wasn’t miserable and thankfully I didn’t get very angry cus the paramedics were really nice that wouldn’t have been good lmao but it was definitely absolute fear and shock at what I did or what was happening who knows. I didn’t even get the full dosage before od in thank god or it might’ve been way worse (good thing I had zero tolerance I guess ha?). Everything just worked out well and fast. Rarely get second chances like that I need to take up on it it’s made me realise how clouded and stupid I was being.

[Junkieasteride]

Yes dude for sure this place helps me feel like I can go on knowing others are battling too. If I had no propeciahelp forum I couldn’t even imagine how confused and crushed I’d have been… I’m so glad this place exists because otherwise I’d feel like the only person in the world suffering and that simply isn’t true!

Many people battling proudly day by day. I was just being a young and impulsive idiot as per my personality ugh hah

Best of luck in your fight brother <3

[sg8627]

You do have a lot to live for man
Take it one step at a time and focus on getting right and out of that place on your own time

We are here to support you and one another