Thank goodness you’re still alive. You have to appreciate the fact that 0) You matter to people, you are loved and appreciated. 1) You don’t necessarily have PFS yet as you have just stopped taking the drug for two months, 2)Even if you do, time is on your side and most people get better with time, and 3) The people you are corresponding with and the stories you read are a biased sample of the worst cases. People who get better or recover stop posting. Many of us including myself have worsened themselves through supplements and medications.
Your first line of defense against your condition should always be radical patience, self-care and self-love expressed through mindfulness, good stress management, meditation, and leading a healthy lifestyle. It seems awfully bromidic but frankly I wouldn’t still be posting here if I didn’t play around with supplements last year. At least give it a few more months before trying anything else. And when you do want to try research that decision for at least a month or two.
If you havent already, you have to take this time to develop yourself as a person. Learn to separate negative thoughts and feelings from your self identity and reality. They are not who you are (well partly it’s because you’re withdrawing from fin) but how you choose to react to them is up to you. The things that have transpired are not your fault and you do not deserve to suffer, but you do have control over how much you suffer.
