SHIT i ready to death. Today when i come from school i bought 4 different sleep pills and its on my bed now. they’re waiting for me. i dont know they can kill me but im going to try. SHİT SHİT, i was one of the most succesfull student in my scholl but even idiots will graduate but me? me is a fucking like an idiot i can not doing good my exams and my family will fucking kill me.
i dont deserve this mess , i cannot harm any of people in my life but im punished for nothing. im punished by a fucking pharma company and their fucking ugly bitch dickhead son of a bitch ceo.
i can’t acting like normal anymore to my parents or my fucking friends. im tired of acting like normal while my brain is melting.
probably researchs not find a cure until i will turn 50 years old or 60.
i swear to god my face looks like 50 years old my all face is melting and my anus is bleeding when i shit. my penis looks like a new born baby penis and my tinnitus like a chinese torture and constant. i can not hear a shit, i can not see a shit my vision is so fucked up double dimmed night blinded when i close my eyes and open again i see a lot of veins or nerves in my vision, my eyes my face my nose so dry and i have a lot of scars and sebhoraic dermatitis in my face and its constant., can not feel nothing and i swear when people look at me they are scared i was in bus today and i swear a child dont want to sit near of me he said his mother this man is so weird i dont want to sit here.
Life was beatiful and this fucking drug was so evil.
I fucked my life for nothing.