Well guys out of being in the deepest of shit with this disease I thought I’d give it a shot. To note I have zero libido, a cold shrunken dick, pain in the remaining testicle, no spontaneous ever no masculinity, but what the hell. Sometimes the most complex of things are resolved by something so simple so I had to give it a go.
Bearing in mind it’s been a long time as I often hoped no fap would help but it never has. I’d sometimes force one off to get some sleep but that’s generally it for me in that department… Anyway I managed to push 2 out first thing yesterday, then another in the afternoon then the last one early evening. Once I managed to get focused etc it was over very quickly each time. However the interesting thing is my muscle and bone pain reduced as the day progressed along with the burning gum pain, acid reflux, no reaction to food, extreme anxiety and the feeling of being like an old man abated somewhat. I even felt a bit of taughtness in my muscular frame and the constant fear ebbed a little too. My eyesight also sharpened up, I was able to engage with people too. I had broken sleep consisting of maybe 5 hours in total. Unfortunately there has been no sensitivity today which has made the task unachievable. I’ve managed 2 after many attempts which will probably be worse more than doing nothing to see what happened. My urine has been particularly dark which happens when t is heading up the hill. Given my state there’s no way I can knock out 4 per day but I’ll try to do it weekly to see if I get some restbite. Lowering T via the 4 pumps definitely helped things in the short term. But all symptoms have returned as the day has gone on . Keeping t down is the goal I think. The symptoms that dropped off were all estrogen related