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#122

Hey Henchman,

one more question:

You wrote: “I also started a regimen of edging during this time period? I read that masturbation could cause temporary loss in receptor activity but also read that sexual activity could boost testosterone, so I just thought what the hell? I did have waves where it was very difficult to get an erection, so this wasn’t always easy but I did a schedule twice a day. I would edge myself almost to orgasm then let myself cool down all the way then back up 3 times in the morning and 3 times at night.”

Do you still know where you had that Information about edging from?

I realised, that everytime i masturbate, my pulse gets lower as shown on my smartwatch. I did edging the last days and symptoms are slowly improving. I dont know, might be a coincidence, but maybe this actually does help…

Do you remember about what timeframe you did edging?

#123

I’m pretty sure I did this when I first started seeing symptoms before my worst crash. I can’t remember where I read it. All I did was read about this stuff at the beginning, all day, everyday. I haven’t done it since the start though.

#124

I read a post of yours that said that one day he woke up and was already feeling better. how long did it take for this to happen?

#125

I had a temporary recovery about 5-6 months in, but it was only temporary and was definitely not a full temporary recovery. Looking back I think it was actually a little bit of mania. I was not normal, but I just felt significantly better for a short while.

#126

in your recovery did you feel a burning sensation as if you were feverish during the nights? I have been feeling cold and hot at night alternating.

#127

At the beginning I had this a lot. I would have cold extremities a lot and would also get hot and have night sweats while having to get up and pee like 6-8 times per sleepless night. Also I had hot flashes preceding many major changes in my state of being, including recently when I started drastically improving…

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#128

All, just wanted to let you know I haven’t quite beat this thing yet. I had a small relapse this weekend. I had some return of anxiety, loss of libido, sexual function, shrinking genitals all yesterday morning. Things got a little better as the day went on, but I knew something was wrong and didn’t get barely any sleep last night. 2-3 very low quality hours at most. It’s been 6-7 weeks since I’ve had a dip like this.

Overall I’m still ok. Just not doing fantastic anymore. As long as I can get some sleep tonight I’ll be thankful.

I don’t know if it’s because I’ve completely fallen off the wagon with my protocol, no more exercise, relaxed on sleep hygeine, diet, the works. I’ve gained 10-15 pounds over the past few months just enjoying myself I suppose. Plus work has been extremely stressful the past month or two.

I’m going to try and take a step back and get back to basics again and see if I can shake this quickly. Wish me luck that this is just a small road bump and not a full on relapse. Please oh please, let this go away soon.

#129

you’ll get better

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#130

I believe I will. Each time this has happened lately I seem to push even higher the next recovery phase so it seems like the crashes are part of the recovery. I won’t say that I’m not terrified right now though as I know this thing can turn on a dime, but I am convinced currently, That I will recover again. If it mirrors recent dips, I should feel better tomorrow or the next day.

I also want to note for records sake that leading up to this happening I was getting intense morning erections like before almost daily and rather inconvenient spontaneous erections at night. I would say sexual function was 100% restored. Essentially I was only missing some small amount of mental faculties (extreme excitement and very complex problem solving (computer programming for instance)), some small amount of libido, and my sleep was not normal (but good enough). It was a great 7 weeks.

Here’s hoping I resolve the rest with this next recovery phase. I kicked it off with some body weight exercises and a 10k this morning.

#131

my friend, im feel so weak.

#132

Rest if you need to, go easy with training to start. Some people here have had bad reactions to exercise. Do your research, find all the things to avoid. Just focus on avoiding things that make you worse for now and slowly home in on anything that makes you feel better. The things for me were outdoors, sunshine, family, and exercise. Try to find the things that help you stay strong even though you might feel weak.

I know it’s hard, especially at the start but I would recommend to avoid this forum as much as you can after you do your initial research or you can start a story like mine. Maybe one day your story will help someone else. Work towards that. That thought helped push me forward.

I hope we both feel better soon.

#133

I also had a full recovery for about 2 months, but then broke down again after that, and it kept going up and down after that. Hope you get better soon and don’t relapse. Your log also gives me hope.

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#134

I started feeling better as the day went on yesterday (just like before) and then slept like a dream last night and woke up to an even higher recovery than before my dip. This feels much closer to a full mental recovery. I’m much happier and more excited and playful. It’s weird since I haven’t been myself for so long, I forget small things about how I used to be until it comes back. Just hope it sticks or is at least a longer gap this time before my next dip. If I make it longer than 7 weeks this time then I’ll take that as confirmation I’m moving towards a full recovery.

#135

Good. I hope you recover your health

#136

I can not sleep without sleeping pill…what should I do…

#137

I’m so sorry you’re going through this and I cannot tell you what you should do. I can only tell you that I went through something similar and all I did is laid out in my story. I can currently sleep well enough although sleeping problems are probably my biggest remaining symptom. I typically sleep 5-7 hours now each night with no assistance. I have no trouble falling asleep and usually am asleep within 15 minutes. I do have trouble staying asleep and almost always wake up at the 5 hour mark, after which sleep is difficult to come by typically. I have some days where it is better. Some where it’s worse.

I essentially didn’t sleep for months straight or very minimal, low quality sleep that barely even counts as sleep. I went up to four days straight with no sleep and regularly had 2 days straight with no sleep before finally getting 2-3 hours before the next stretch with no sleep. It is tough. One of the scariest hardest things I’ve ever done. I did this all somehow only missing a few days of work, and while maintaining a strict training regimen.

I can’t recommend you do what I did, but it worked for me. I never took any sleeping pills. I put about 6 months of work in before I felt like my sleep was even remotely recovered. When I was getting 4-5 hours low quality sleep per night.

#138

Thanks for the advice.

#139

Dear HOPEQ,

Could you please share your recovery story?

#140

Everyone,

End of September update. After my recent mini-crash I seem to have leveled out after a little up and down. I feel slightly improved from the previous 7 week recovery but also a little more unstable. The only thing that doesn’t feel improved is my sleep which is the same or slightly worse. However 5-6 hours of sleep now is enough to make me feel rested and rejuvenated, more so than 7-8 hours would make me feel pre-fin.

I’ve entered another phase of excercise/training after taking some time off and gaining some weight. Still taking probiotic, still avoiding trigger foods. I recall now that the night before my mini-crash I ate an Oreo milkshake. I didn’t think that would really count as chocolate, but maybe that’s what got me? Who knows?

For now I’m doing great again, if nothing changes I’ll update end of next month. Good luck all.

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#141

I’ve continued to improve enough I thought it warranted a mid-month update. Every crash rebound seems to bring me higher and I now have full morning wood recover for past 2 weeks. All erection issues seem 100% resolved now. My libido further recovers and I now often have sex twice a day although I have more multi-day gaps without than I used to I would say 90-95% libido recovery now. My sleep further improves and my need for sleep has increased along with it. I took two naps the other day, two! It’s as good as I remember. I regularly sleep 8 hours now, still broken past 5 hours though. Going back to sleep is less and less of an issue and staying asleep is easier past the 5 hour stop. Still have small waves of slight anxiety but getting better. I really feel like I’m headed towards the finish line all.

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