You guys need to realize there is also an important psychological component when it comes to refer how you feel. As an example the primary efficacy of antidepressants comes from placebo effect, this is demonstrated. Same effect is probably present also in other drugs. Think about when you suffer for love(admitting you already felt in love for someone), you can’t think, you might not breath, you can’t concentrate, you feel shit and you can’t perform, you might get seriously depressed and anxious. Consider being in that state for a long time, you will soon have suicidal thoughts because you can’t suffer too much for a long time. Normaly you have to react, force yourself to think positively instead of letting yourself in despair. This clearly depends on what kind of person you are. Anyhow, this proves how you can get debilitated by psychology. FEAR, which most of us on here know what it is, has similar effects. But this is only an example. Psychology is very underestmated on this forum. Saying that your suicidal thoughts are due to your HGH levels is a symptom of the fact that you underestimate it, I believe. What if your HGH is low because you’re scared to hell of living all your life with pfs? or maybe your HGH is low because you used all the fucking drugs available on the market , all of which come with sideffects tested seen on healthy subjects, which you are not, LOL(just an idea).
I am not saying PFS is fiction, I am saying that the psychology and psychiatry are interconnected strictly. If you are in chronic severe anxiety an depression because of your preoccupations and beliefs, your endocrine system can react differently from person to person, even “shut down”. You can believe in this or not, this has not been completely studied by science for what I know. Though an important MD(Chrysler maybe, don’t remember) dealing with PFS was saying something about this and I agree only to some extent. IMO, PFS is physical, but triggers important psychological issues that we need to deal with, suicidal thoughts being one of them.
I think that regardless of whether this is true or not, you’re not going to fix anything with HGH, unless you are pretty lucky to untrigger something in your body. Your body is immensly complicated and it’s easier to make damage to it than to heal it. Often, when you take a molecule which is meant to be synthesized within the body, downregulation of the endogneous production occurs. So let’s say you take HGH, it’s plausible that when you withdraw it, your endogneous production will be even worse. Or maybe some other pathway will be affected. Seems a very stupid idea to me. I would stop all drugs, make strictly health living, concentrating on tasks that make you feel well. Try performing to the best you can, your body will adjust to perform to the best. You’re young and your body should be better able to heal itself. After some months of that, if your levels are still bad, I’d maybe try HGH. But I repeat, that’s only my opinion, if you feel you want to follow the advice of an MD, you’re obviously free to believe in him. I would remember however that the community of Medical Doctors is still promoting Finasteride, which says a lot about what their protocols are meant for (MDs normally follow protocols they, most of the time, don’t know what’s the complicated science and economical interest behind them).
I obviously do not take responsibility of your actions. This is what “I” would do. Just bringing a different point of view.
But playing with hormones shouldn’t be taken as a game, it is not. Sorry for the length 
