Connective tissues Detoriorating

Symptoms
#6

I wish I had the balls to kill myself, life has gone from fun to a living nightmare recently.

Can anyone help or do anything? I’m desperate at this point I’m pleading for help I know isn’t there.

I just want a normal life now not even a good one just normal would do. I fucking hate this. Why can’t we get guns in my country I’d be done with this already. I’m so distraught by PFS it’s awful, I can’t believe it exists. I really can’t believe I’ve got it.

I can’t believe this is my destiny. I used to believe in destiny fate everything happened for a reason. But this is all to cruel to happen for any reason to anyone.

#7

There you go again. Assuming the worst will happen. You have to do something to relax, man. You’re still only 6 weeks out from quitting. You’re a fresh new member. There is reason to have hope.

I’m thinking that constantly checking in on here is giving you some extra anxiety. Do you think that’s true? I know that happens to me. You should spend time away from here. Go be with family/friends. Play some video games. Go be busy, my man. You can check in on here at any time, but maybe a little break might do you good? Just my advice.

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#8

It probably is but idk if I can do it man. I feel like this PFS stage is the final stage of my life before death, I feel like there isn’t anything left after this tbh.

I try to stay away but I’m lonely as it is anyway. I don’t like being with friends in my post pfs state I feel like I’m being a fake to them.

I really hope you’re right but the digestion issues happened and didn’t stop the day I took the AI. Now I’m getting visual floaters and all’s kinds of shit.

Pain I’ve never had before, everywhere! It’s fucking terrifying because Douglas and Konflict would’ve done anything to stay alive.

Furthermore. My memory is fucked now. Completely. I had to scroll up to remember conflicts name. To be fair I haven’t slept for like 40hrs so it could be that but still.

I promise you man I don’t think I’m imagining these symptoms. Douglas’s case lacks certain details mine has and Konflict I literally only just read his case and was terrified when every symptom sounds like what’s happening to me.

I just hope my connective tissue doesn’t go… I love the gym with all my heart, I have to commit suicide if I can’t even train. It’s literally not an option to live :frowning:

Thanks for taking the time to reply to me. I know that when I get worse I’ll make sure to say some final words to you and a few others before I do commit suicide but until then. I’m holding on to the hope you’re right…

#9

Everyone who crashes their E2 feels pain. Especially joint pain. Search for crashed E2 outside the forum. Anyways, I’m going to get some rest and call it a night. I hope you can get some rest, too! Feel free to DM me if you’re feeling lonely or anything. We can skype too if you like. Sometimes a voice instead of messages is nice.

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#10

For now, get some sleep @Junkieasteride. Come back in 24hrs or so.

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#11

@Junkieasteride I have your same symptoms without having touched aromatase inhibitors. Who says it’s necessarily E2 crash? I developed it on low-dose TRT, so my E2 should have increased, not decreased. I repeat, you are too hasty and rushed, give yourself time…
… And watch less japanese anime, It’s just trash for debauched …

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#12

@Junkieasteride

IMO The best thing you could do right now is stop trying to cure yourself and give yourself some time for your body to heal itself.

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#13

I agree with you but I feel I sorry that you’re missing out on some of the most amazing shows of our time all because Japanese people drew it lol

#14

Today I noticed I have to really focus hard on things close or far away else it becomes blury.

Ive always had perfect vision in the past. 20/20 tested im gonna try some dry eye medicine see if it helps.

I can’t believe I’m going to lose everything.

#15

The thing that helped me with severe anxiety and pain in my forearm and other joints are benzodiazepines. I’ve had severe constipation too and have used otc laxatives to treat that.

#16

1mg of Adex is too high most people only take 0.25… and it’s not consecutively… and it’s usually when they’re on TRT only.

I would wait a bit, let your estrogens rebound they usually come back for most people since you only took 1 pill.

I believe you were also taking DHT additives and the DHT alone should have lowered your estrogens as they counteract each other. Give ti some time don’t mess with your hormones without testing, you need to know that your E was high before taking Arimidex.

#17

When I had dry eyes it was because of low T. I once put a bit of T cream on my eyelids and it helped, not recommended however.

You may have lowered your T levels or some of your hormones on your protocol that caused the dry eyes.

#18

Not started the dht derivs yet.

Today I woke up with intense pain in both legs mainly around behind the knee. I’ve never had anything like this before in my life. It aches so bad all over

#19

Brother, I have been in your same situation for 6 months. My muscles, joints, tendons hurt. I have depression and anxiety.
I have not taken supplements except low-dose vitamin D magnesium and 8 drops alprazolam in the morning and afternoon.
When I go to the bathroom, the hemorrhoids break and I lose blood.
The only thing that works is the penis that 1 time a week allows me to have sex with my wife without cialis or viagra.
I have a son a job and a wife and I have to stay with them. I can’t lose the war.
Why are they at war now. We must be strong and pray. Sooner or later it will pass.
Don’t think about the gym if you can’t. Walk 30 min 3 times a week if you can. And leave the hormones alone that have nothing to do with it.

#20

bout to shoot some test in case my estrogen never climbed back up. Gotta try everything man sorry.

#21

Do as you wish, but the problem is brain receptors, hormones have nothing to do with it. After three months I was with very low text now I have an average testosterone and all the values ​​have risen.
I am in contact with melcangi being Italian. Hormones have nothing to do with it.
The problem is chemical and of the central and peripheral nervous system

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#22

plan to kill myself soon

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#23

Keep kalm.

#24

its agony, unbearable pain. I have no balance I can’t walk from one room to another without stumbing and I can’t focus on any anything else other than the burning sensation. It’s like a 7/10

And its only going to get worse… Everything else cracks too, so how long til they hurt me? How long until I’m wheelchair bound.

I’m crying rn (if I could shed more than a tiny tear emotional blunting -.-)

#25

suicide would be worth it to stop the physical pain alone now, just as much as the emotional.