How long has it been like that for you? I have a similar pattern of there being good/ bad days which has moved slowly from being almost all bad days to there being more good days.
In general, I think the bad days are getting better and so are the good days, but as you say, the up and downswings are totally unpredictable. I could recently tell when it was all about to get worse when I would have a bad night’s sleep.
I really don’t know why I’m taking that … Some guys were enthusiasts about it, that’s all. I’m totally lost.
Since I started Cypro/Lupron, more than 2 years ago. Before that I had just PFS (brain fog, no libido,…), but I didn’t mind. I wanted to gain more hair and be more feminine, and the real nightmare started.
Yeah it’s totally unpredictable. But for me bad days are worse (pain is worse …). I would like to be able to stop everything, maybe that’s why everything is getting worse, but I cannot. I tried and I don’t want to try again, and I don’t want to be more masculine. I’m crazy.
How long for you ? Do you think you will be cured ? You’re taking something ?
14 months.
I am optimistic that I will gradually get better and better.
I take nothing, I eat fairly healthily but I’m far from eating a special diet. I try to get enough fruit and vegetables and fibre, not so much red meat. I avoid some 5ar inhibitors in foods and would not take any medicine/drugs that have that effect.
What do you mean? What are you taking?
I’m taking Lupron … so I wont get better
I am sorry to hear that. Is a worsening condition common with lupron? Is it safe to stop taking it?
I think I had FPS when taking Finasteride and later Dutasteride. But it got worse after Lupron. Because with normal testosterone my androgen receptors were shutdown, but with low levels of testosterone my androgen receptors are very active.
I stopped AA for 3-4 months, the pain was unbearable and I was having seizures, my parents were very worried, and me too actually. I decided to go back on AA … and I really don’t want to stop AA again, too afraid and don’t want to be more virile. But maybe after some time my androgen receptors would have been shut down too. Sorry for my english.
Almost sounds like the waves and windows pattern that they believe in at survivingantidepressants.org They eventually it leads to recovery. They also say both windows and waves get slightly better and better overtime untill u reach a window that does not stop.
No improvement after 2 years … always 1-2 days* good, 5-6 bad.
And as time goes I get pain in other places (never had headaches until 5 months ago, same with pelvic)…
But ok … maybe in 30 years I will get better 
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Thanks for the link
haha yeah i dont believe in it either but its their religion everyone heals with time etc.
AA= ?
Anti-androgens
You are more virile now that you are taking AA or the first time you left them and felt bad? What about your libido homo or hetero during the same periods?
I’m more virile now. But I was also being viril when I stopped AA (acne, body hair, muscles). And when I stopped I was still gay, but for 2-3 days I had some inclination for women.
Are you guys for real? I’m felling the exact same thing.
I was never 100 % straight, but more like 80% straight and 20% gay. I could understand if a man was good-looking, and I had something like 4 same sex dreams, but I was pretty sure of my sexual orientation.
When I was 20 I started to take finasteride and took it for 4 years. Never had a same sex dream since I was 16 or something, and never a attraction to man again. I even had a change to have sex with man, and didn’t really wanted. I knew myself pretty well.
Since I stopped taking finestaride, I started having doubts about my sexual orientation. I’m able to have an erection when I’m with my girlfriend but it was not the same thing. Takes me days until I’m able to get an erection again.
I’m having same sex toughs, but I’m not getting an erection with them. Just a fuck load of anxiety.
Porn doesn’t get me hard anymore, but I’m felling an urge to check gay porn. However, when I masturbate, when I can, I can only think about sex with my girlfriend.
This is so fucking annoying, sex doesn’t feel the same anymore. It seems that my dick doesn’t sends signals to my brain. Ejaculation is just a big load of nothing. Please, send help.
Noticed this with accutane, was very disturbing. Also felt slight gender dysphoria. Both of witch I’ve never experienced in my life.
same!
Yeah, it happened to me too. The anxiety became unbereable and I had to take antidepressives. I had intrusive thoughts all the time, couldnt even meet my friends and chill because of it.
Just started on a new antidepressive. Felling a bit better. But damn, fucking scary shit.
Sometimes I am gay again… But it’s not the same and no libido.
Weird.