all the progress i’ve made the past year or 2 has just completely vanished. All of my old symptoms are back but even worse. It’s a full on second crash from Lexapro and Buspar. The digestion stuff improved with time and wasn’t as much of a concern as I thought it was. Man I have just fucked myself completely again and am destroyed by this. I’m going on 4 years and have lost so much critical time. I haven’t had a relationship in idk how long and I just feel so fucking alone. I keep looking at guns online and ideas about where to buy pure fentanyl just to have incase I give up completely one night. To think that I was on the way to recovering and noticed tangible changes in my body, and for it just to be sucked away like that. I never even did anything wrong man. I’m not a shitty person and havent made shitty choices and ive just had my life crushed and taken from me. It breaks my heart so much and I can’t believe i’m back to square one with this.
I’m going to give it 2-3 months and if nothing improves, i’ll try HCG or R andro.