Hey man,
I do have a normal life, but I also know that something is not 100% right. I’m infinitely better than when I crashed, but still not 100%.
Again, my main remaining issues are flaccid shrinkage, anxiety and fatigue. These all fluctuate wildly. Sometimes I feel great, hanging large, feeling chilled and have good energy, but most times it’s a sliding scale i.e. general anxiety could be at a 5, shrinkage at an 8, fatigue at a 3 etc. While all people’s levels of energy fluctuate, I know my body and I know that these issues are not normal for me.
The biggest concern, of course, is the shrinkage. Some times of day it is a non issue, and I feel pretty close to before all this started. But many times it shrinks up for no reason at all, goes cold and balls tighten. And I mean dramatically. This is not the way my dick behaves - I’ve known him pretty well for many years now. It does feel related to the general anxiety and obviously has a positive feedback loop by fuelling anxiety as well.
So I’m trying to get to the bottom of the fluctuations and find a sweet spot where things are as stable as possible. That’s why I continue to test and try things out - to get increasingly closer to ideal treatment for me.
But all in all, I am living my life and getting on with things. I’m certainly not crawled up in the foetal position on the floor. But the above issues do lead to extra stress and concern, especially in the area of romantic relationships.
Libido has always been pretty good and I’ve never suffered from true ED, he just ain’t quite what he used to be, and the “flaccid shrinkage for no good reason” thing is stressful. Things are at a manageable level, but I’m constantly looking to improve.
As an aside - the one condition (not PFS) that seems closest to matching my general symptoms is low cortisol. My cortisol is low and DHEA is low. I tried DHEA supps before, with little success. If anyone has any insights into these particular hormones, let me know…all the best