Another morning from hell. My back is painful and burning with nerve pain. It’s searing in my arms and it’s firing in my legs and feet. I am utterly exhausted, very fatigued, and my hair is destroyed straw. I am utterly alone and there is nobody I can turn to. I found a photo of me a few years ago and I was well built from the gym, superfit, handsome, and in Venice with my sister. I told her that I’d be moving to Spain to live with my Spanish girlfriend at some point. Instead I got ill and lost it all.
I feel so poorly everyday I haven’t been able to return to work. I have no care for anything now. Even wearing clothes hurts. I have many bad symptoms and I am declining. I tried to tell my family but they just don’t understand. I don’t hear from almost anyone ever.
I never hear any success stories from people as far gone as me. The fact that there is nobody to help me, no thorough research or solutions, no accounts from people seeing consultants and have had their oils and levels restored (when as far gone as me) is horrendous. The fact no doctors or anyone knows about this.
What the hell was I thinking when I took finisteride? I’m at a loss at the mindset that led me to try it.
I’m running out of time. I don’t believe there’s a consultant out there that can help me and I’m not treating myself like a lab rat and making myself worse.