@Forwardsnotbackwards agree mate well said just thought i’d try to give some perspective and possibly suggest a mindful/constructive mindset. Not saying this post is bad or silly because I can 100% relate and let’s face it where else can we really talk about our symptoms. Which symptoms bother me the most also fluctuates over time however the ones which prevent basic function every day ie mood and sleep are the most bothersome personally. I can accept that I will never be the same sexually although at times this stoic viewpoint is not so strong lol.
My brain plays the exact same tricks on me when my symptoms fluctuate and the whole thing can be just so frustrating. I’ve also had other symptoms during my down periods that I don’t really speak about because I know these symptoms are not a constant for me and I’m optimistic they will improve. I’d take comfort in that many seem to make good mental recoveries/improvements over the long term. I also think fluctuations in symptoms is a good thing and could be a positive sign of improvement over the long term. From what you’re describing i believe things will improve for you its just going to be a long and at time tough road.
Glad you found this discussion useful and I hope you get out of this recent slump real soon