i just started wellbutrin a few days ago. my psych. put me on 150mg XR says dont worry about it leave it up to him and he will get it working again… says he knows how to cure me. after thinking about im bummed about how long i waited to see a shrink and i found a good one i think. i was reading about behavioral therapy which might be helpful on top of our problem. he says ED can ruin every aspect of your life if left untreated. which is true for so far. i have been so depressed i didnt even realize how depressed i was. i was so deep in the abyss i pretty much thought of suicidal thoughts as normal - a daily thing. so depressed and unable to experience any joy. i would cry and cry sometimes. i even cried at toystory 3. i couldnt enjoy the movie. i remember thinking - i thought i like this movie. it got 99% on rotten tomatoes so why doesnt it make me happy? everyone else liked it…
well within 2 days of the taking the wellbutrin i have to say it made me feel SO much better. I am taking the T3 also right now (but i am pretty sure its the wellbutrin) It was weird because i bought a video game Forza III about a year ago and i was thinking how i love racing games. well i put it on and only played it for a few minutes. i remember thinking - this is supposed to be fun but it isn’t.
well i started the wellbutrin on friday but by sunday i popped open the game and put it in for the first time in a while and i started feeling things that i havent felt in so long! i had a sense of nostalgia of playing xbox with my old roommates out of high school and started laughing out loud. i was smiling! i couldn’t remember the last time i smiled and i wasnt CONSCIOUSLY smiling - i have had moments of a awakening since i took the wellbutrin. The feeling that i was reaching for and expecting when i first bought the game finally emerged!
i have to recommend wellbutrin to anyone who is really depressed. i took an SSRI a long time ago when my girlfriend in high school broke up with me because i was sad. thats not depression. depression is the chemical imbalance we have. where we cant be happy. being sad is not being depressed.
i am walking taller with swag again, being friendly to people and engaging in more dialog. i am becoming more extroverted again and my thought process has cleared dramatically. it is easier for me to articulate now and i am more aggressive. overall i just have a better attitude.
ED remains - complete impotence. :-/ it sucks - but at least i dont feel like blowing my brains out. even today i put a new post up - being proactive. check it out its the NATURAL ANTI-ANDROGEN BRAINSTORM in GENERAL. That is a perfect example of how it has helped me. I am actually doing things again!