PFS makes me very angry and fight-starting. Sometimes I get angry at seeing my condition, my stunted muscles and horrible thin skin and start punching doors/mirrors. Gaming makes me rage super hard and punch my monitor. Other times just normal world things make me unexplainable violent, like at school if someone tried to bump into me or try to start shit it feels like satan has taken over my body, I get so rage filled I just want to deck the person and want to kill them. And all my PFS sides get worse when this happens. Infact right now I’m pissed off and how thin and fucked up my skin is along with the brain fog is unbelievable.
As soon as I feel improvements like when I first restarted minoxidil all of this goes away, my estrogen gets lowered and I feel civilized and smart again, not to mention becoming more attractive and all the other benefits that come with androgenic function. This is just complete hell and I need to get out of it, and if I can’t then I will fucking kill myself.