Well 32 is definitely older than being 20, but 32 is still an age where you can be in great shape. For most people, you don’t really start losing metabolism and start getting diagnosed with medical problems like diabetes and high blood pressure until you get to your 40s (possibly later if you can fight aging effectively). 32 is an age when most guys are capable of having good sex.
So don’t start thinking you’re getting old just yet, and don’t blame any of your problems on your age, because it just doesn’t happen like that.
Anyways, you are nuts if you want to attempt self-medicating with strong and dangerous substances. It’s been discussed on this forum before that TRT is a delicate process that requires monitoring and fine-tuning by a proffessional. If you don’t take HGC injections regularly your nuts will turn into raisins, and even with HGC, LH is suppressed, so basically you’re best off making a lifelong commitment and ending up with a bunch of track marks kinda like a heroin addict. There is also a massive flow-charts worth of hormonal pathways in the body, and just taking test might not restore all of them.
Of course you could try doing PCT yourself after taking test for a while, but keep in mind that PCT is not all it’s made out to be. Stuff like clomid and nolvadex are strong and toxic chemicals. They actually have sexual side effects while you are on them. These substances are also slowly becoming outdated for those very reasons. There are some drugs that are being developed and some that have been more recently released, look into and do a little research on Evista. Also, some bodybuilders don’t recover for years even with PCT, a few don’t recover ever.
Testosterone is a controlled substance in America, so if you’re gonna order it off the net you might as well have have some xanax, aderall, vicodin, and oxycontin to go along with it. Of course, I’m sure it’s possible to pull it off, it’s just not a good idea.
I have never looked into online pharmacies and do not know of such places, whether they be reliable or not. Even if I did know though, I wouldn’t tell you because in no way will I support you taking actions which will result in you doing even more harm to yourself than has already been done.
So don’t self-medicate and do the smart thing and actually get yourself checked out by a reputable doctor instead of taking chances and doing ridiculous things to yourself. Demand that the doctor gives you the tests that you want. If you think you have a shrunken prostate consider getting an x-ray of that whole section of your body, wouldn’t that be able to tell you something?
I remember you posted a hormonal lab from a while ago. Didn’t you have high estrogen? Getting everything straightened out and fixed might be simple and not require drugs. You just have to get checked out for it.
Also, don’t forget to take resveratrol!