I just wrote this on reddit on the tressless subreddit
Hi Everybody,
I used to visit this forum a while ago and help others going through the same torture which is Post Finasteride Syndrome. My goal in life is to do anything possible to heal myself and others.
As we all are aware, discussing PFS’s existence is a waste of time and is actually harmful to real people going through real PFS.
Lets step away for one moment and say to ourselves that us PFS suffers are real people who used to be normal, happy, enjoyed life before PFS stole all this away from us. Have compassion, mercy, tolerance, humanity, empathy and love towards PFS suffers, even if you love propecia, even if you never had one side effect, even if you have a billion dollars in Merck stock.
Now for those who are suffering from PFS. Some of us only have sexual side effects, or only mental side effects, or both mental and sexual side effects.
My case it was all. Almost every single bad PFS side effect I had. Under a PFS doctor specialist my sexuality has improved somewhat, good enough to live with, my bodies strength has recovered as well, except for one thing. The constant depression, anxiety, self-loathing, self-hatred, nothing making me happy, everything being blah or I don’t like it. Before PFS I used to be the happiest, lucky feeling guy who lived life to the fullest. A guy who woke up every single morning with a big smile ready to live and enjoy what ever life gave him.
After a while, I forgot how to live a happy life. I forgot what happiness was. What love was,…empathy was.
Once you totally forget something, anything, then it does not exist in your universe anymore.
PTSD suffers go through the same thing. A traumatic event that steals happiness and love…and throws is into a dark hole and covers this whole with a million pounds of concrete. Good luck chiseling all this concrete to reach your happiness again at the bottom of the dark pit.
After reading many articles on treating PTSD with MDMA, I decided to treat myself with MDMA as well.
The discussion of MDMA such as how much to take, where to take it, how to buy it, what kinds of MDMA, how much does it cost, isn’t it illegal, isn’t it neurotoxic, causes depression, is it addictive…etc…etc…is a complete different discussion which I would take my time to write if you guys want it.
this discussion is only about how I treated myself successfully with MDMA, and that is it.
When you take a correct dose MDMA (in the right setting), it forces you to become extremely happy, euphoric, and full of pure love for everybod, for what ever is around you. You have a huge grin for 6 hours straight, like you just won the lottery, married a playmate and never have to work again…etc…etc, or what ever it might be for you… Its very difficult to explain unless you have done it. Lets say in other words, the day you are rolling is probably the best day of your life…EVER. Its that good.
If you are going through PFS, when was the last time you FELT THAT GOOD, THAT MUCH PURE UNADULTERATED LOVE EXPLODING FOR EVERY CELL FROM YOUR BODY AND BRAIN.
I bet you don’t even remember or even care anymore.
This unnatural happy love high is only temporary, only will last a few hours…anywhere from 4 to 6 hours. There might be a depression hangover which will eventually pass. You will eventually come back down on earth and reality. But you just had a taste of pure love and happiness.
I compare it to having forgotten how to ride a bike, and MDMA are the training wheels for you to ride your bike again. You only use these training wheels temporary, and after you learn again how to ride the bike…you take them training wheels off and you ride again all over the world, like you used too, with a huge smile on your face.
In no way I am condoning taking illegal drugs. I am just sharing my experience so others may also a chance to heal themselves too.
Please take your time and research the healing powers of MDMA and how it has helped many other suffers.
reddit.com/r/MDMA/comments/2 … _and_mdma/
articles.latimes.com/2014/mar/15 … a-20140316
much love to the forum and members.