Here it goes, the story of another stupid 23 vain young man:
may 25 start taking 1mg finasteride
june 26 start feeling effects (mainly, I met this freaking beautiful nice girl and things weren’t as they should. That night i tried to masturbate and I couldn’t reach a full erection) I decide to quit cold turkey
july 1-15 Don’t remember, I had my mind on some exams and stuff
july 15-30 I notice how effects are getting worse, mainly emotional (erections and libido are crappy and low)
july 30 I wake up with swallen dry eyes. the dry eyes tend to get worse for about a month. Now they seem to be better, but not 100% well
august 04: I find the forum. I read the faq. I panic.
August was simply the worst month in my life. I’ve never been depresses in my life, but that month was terrible. I couldn’t care less about anything I ever cared: music, people, books, girls, porn, food, sports. Depression, bad one.
September:
emotionally I am a bit better. Back in august, I know there was no desition “it’s time to get depressed”, it was just imposed, I couldn’t control it. But now, whenever I think “fuck this shit I’m screwed up for life I should end this shit blabla…” I know it’s not simply hormonal, but it’s actually me beeing emo…but still I think I’m justified, which, back in the normal days, my old me would never think of that way. The old me would be ashamed of me for being such a coward. But fuck the old me, he got me into this mess.
phisically: I am fatter. But that was already happening, since I haven’t trained for a year or so (I used to train judo and excercise a lot), so i don’t mention this. But my face is sloppier (it used to be tight), like a mask. A stupid fat-mask.
SEXUALLY:
My libido is kinda back, but not what it used to be of course. I don’t know how people can actually meassure this shit, but this must be between 50% and 100% ? I don’t know, honestly.
My ejaculations are really crappy: It’s like a badly-mixed solution, which is 70% “the watery thing” and 30% regular dense semen. And the whole solution, in lower quantity.
My erections, I can’t get that damn thing 100% hard. It must be something like 75%? 85%?. I really need to keep touching it so as to don’t lose it. You know, the usual stuff (who would have thought that we would spend so many nights reading about other guys’ erections instead of watching porn or fucking supermodels?)
I haven’t had any bloodtests since I thought I might not suffer from the unresolved effects, and I really, really, hate to take bloodtests.
What I expect: To get better up to a point where I’m confident enough to fuck girls…but honestly, I know I want to get 100% better…I used to be particularly healthy, never got ill, never had ANY medications (haven’t had an aspirin for years) since I ALWAYS knew that medications have effects. It was a mystical belief that what is balanced, you shouldn’t un-balance it with chemicals, and since I was healthy, happy and beautiful, I never considered drugs of any kind…but this stupid thing really got me good. Stupid vanity, stupid hairloss forums.
I’m sorry about this rant, but I wanted to post this.