Survival stories sometimes give me encouragement

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#1

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I would actually trade places w him bc he is able to live a somewhat normal life now. But it gives me hope about being strong and surviving. And i respect everyone on this forum bc this is survival in the greatest sense. I feel for people who have ended their life over this bull. But i cant do that no matter how much life sucks now. I have to put up a fight. And i will live miserably rather than hurt my family and do something drastic. Pride and hope are all i really have left now.

#2

I hate to say it bro, but tell me the same thing if we are still stuck like this 10 years from now.

Fuck… 5 years from now and I will have missed more than a decade of my life.

That said I try to have hope, even thou the world has fallen apart around me. Sometimes I don’t even want to be apart of it, wish I could “freeze” myself till a cure is found. Watching day by day as friends and family live their happy lives, get married, have kids, move up in their jobs… I stagnate. I used to chase down scumbags and the government I worked my ass off for turned its back on me like one of the criminals I used to catch.

Still we’ve made some progress in the past year… we need to keep the media pressure up. Anyone willing to tell their story even under a alias please PM me.

Maybe Awor will give us a update soon and keep hope alive… he is a very busy guy.

#3

Ten years? Well at that point i may have to take matters into my own hands. But im holding off as long as I can Basically, not because I really want to. Its more out of spite. Im living to protest this drug. And im willing to go on national tv and tell every detail of my story. My problem is financial however. I dont have the money to even travel. And i feel for you man. Death may not be as bad as this, but i will not give up at only three months off. That would be stupid. But yes this is a daily fn hell to live in.

#4

And i read your story online. Society is less better off now, having a person like you demoted when you were a capable and effective agent. This mess is so hard to comprehend. But if you werent here, that would be one less person with the balls to stick up for these sufferers. And i personally appreciate your proactiveness despite the personal hell im sure you are living in. I will not go out without a fight. Fuck that im not letting this drug company steal my moms son, my 4 siblings older brother, my dads firstborn, etc without doing what I can to promote awareness against this poison.

#5

Thank you man. I appreicate your kind words. You don’t need money to get the word out… just tell your story to one of our media contacts and they will help you get it out there.

You are 3 months off, I can say at least mentally things will slowly improve as they do for most of us. Even me, I thought I would always feel terrible… it took 14 months for my depression to fade to the extent that could even do the things necessary to my everyday life. I can’t say the sexual side effects have gotten better but mentally I am not nearly as bad as I was the first 6 months off. You at 3 months may even see a full recovery yet. Although generally if your bad enough that suicide has even crossed your mind it might be a long road ahead. Try to get some prazosin if you have the shrinkage, benzo’s like klonopin help a little for the anxiety, Dr. Jacobs prescribed me some but I try to use them sparingly because they have their own problems in regards to withdrawl…

#6

Right now im doing all natural fish oil, st johns wort, b complex. Helps a little. Ive made youtube vids. But yea im eager to contact someone about going public. Ive made it apparent on facebook what im going through and trying to support the cause(could care less if ppl judge me). But maybe u could pm me about how to contact a media person. And im hopeful for a recovery, but ive had every side on this forum that keeps getting worse. So im preparing myself for a real fight against this.

#7

I’m glad this kid has balls. We have too many cowards here who are unwilling to put the slightest effort into the PFS community, other than a shit theory to make them think they matter.

#8

Yes I’m glad he’s willing to put it out there. I’m gonna get him ij contact with PR…