I’m struggling so bad guys. Everytime I wake up from my 3 hour max sleeps I get a wave of intense stress about my condition, it potentially worsening and almost certainly being permanent, I get hit with grief/regret that I took finasteride.
I find myself contemplating suicide a lot recently including planning it out
I’m almost certainly going to fail my exams in 2 weeks that I’ve worked my entire life so hard to get into this position for, I just can’t bring myself to study when i’m dealing with the shame of poisoning myself
Why did I do this to myself? I keep hitting myself, I fucking hate myself for what I’ve done I can’t forgive myself for destroying my chance at a future for some hair.
I’m really fucking struggling. I’m not a mentally strong person I’m fragile, I can’t take this. I’m suffering and its making life a misery. Will therapy even help or make me feel worse?