Hello guys, well here’s my story.
I first started to notice i was balding when i was 17 (it wasn’t a receding hairline, it was just diffused), and researched hair-loss prevention treatments on the internet. All of the answers seemed to point at fin, but i definitely could not afford $50 a month or whatever propecia costs, so i ordered 90 1mg generic tablets from India (the manufacturer was CIPLA).
I took about 2 months of the 1mg dosage per day and then i decided to switch to .25mg to save money (also because i read that .25mg has the same effect as 1mg). Life went on, and within a few months my diffused balding was completely gone and i had a full thick head of hair again. I didn’t notice any negative side effects during those first few months, although as i look back on it, my personality changed significantly. I certainly loss my social appetite somewhere within those first few months and haven’t recovered it entirely since.
As the days went on, the negative side effects multiplied. I thought at first that, i acted the way i did because of my own natural hormones, or genetics. Looking back, i realize that my behavior could not be considered natural or normal. I completely lost all interest in girls. I remember having a girl (who i consider to be a 10/10 at the moment) hit on me in school ALL the time, and i made no effort to purse her… I never hung out with people out side of school, and would feel awkward in large groups of people.
Despite all this, i was simply in denial of the fact that the drug was affecting me. About the time i turned 18 (i am now 19), I developed a slur in my speech and had difficulty forming my words. I felt like i had to concentrate hard sometimes to keep up a conversation. I also developed serious mental fog and found it very difficult to concentrate, especially under pressure.
I had these problems throughout high school and my first year in college not only in front of friends and people at school, but with my family too! Yet, i still thought i was just a seriously messed up kid with some quirks here and there.
One day i blew up at my job because of a simple mis-communication. I yelled curses at a man who was three times the size of me, threw things and stormed out with an enormous rage in my head.
The odd thing was that the symptoms weren’t constant at all. Some days i would feel perfectly normal and socially capable, but others (usually the majority), i felt scared and alone.
Im happy to say that i am finally off the drug (20 days now) and hopefully will never go back on. I made the decision to quit, after reading many of the testimonies on this forum…thanks for whoever set this up btw.
I feel like i am making improvements, i certainly have been very talkative these past few days. I no longer seem to fear eye contact (which was a problem on fin), and i don’t feel perpetually dreary for the rest of the day after taking a nap (another thing that happ often to me on fin).
Right after getting off the drug, my scalp is started to get very itchy and i sometimes feel a burning in my scalp…i guess it’s starting again. It’s such a terrible thing for a man to loose his hair, especially so young. I thought that i would have at least a couple years of full complete youth left, at least enough time of full hair to find a good, permanent spouse. What a bugger.
I guess i have to research alternate hair-loss prevention methods…i heard minoxidil is the next greatest thing, is that true? I feel so embarrassed about it, i don’t want anyone to know. I can’t even walk into a pharmacy or walmart and buy rogaine because im too afraid of what the clerk or someone who might see me would think!
And then there is the possible reality that i could have completely screwed up my life with this fin drug…altogether i was on the thing for about 2 years…who knows what kind of damage it could have done up there.
Any advice, encouragement would be helpful.
