Sorry to all, my brain is racing faster and faster!

Symptoms Neurological
#20

I am on 300 mg Wellbutrin. The first days I have had my first strong errections since 4 month. It was like before, I had dirty phantasies an my cock looked hard out of the trouthers and I walked arround masturbating.

Than I had murder phantasies against the old horror film face fart partner of my ex. She let me down like we never meet each other after two years.

And at last my brain was racing.

Today I hang in bed, demotivated and yesterday dick was only at 60/80 %.
The shit is my libido is skyhigh, my genitals are not shrunken, so I think sometimes with an Inlay I could fuck again, to forget my ex and here sexual attractivity with other women. But I have to wait for recovery for a year. The injections and than call an escort girl is to heavy even for me.

#21

When my little daughter spends the weekend with me, I let the door open and watch the children play, in the evening we watch funny old movies together. Depressions are blown away.

#22

Dear @Hanru_Sun I think you have had an wikd sexlive before too. I had. My last girlfriend was a real sexbomb. But I didn’t see that she want family too. For years I was a sex junkie in sexclubs. So we both cannot exist without sex. So we need a functioning cock for going on to live…

#23

Are you actually a non responder to cialis or other pde5 inhibitors?

#24

Hey @Jonnas12 I like it always to read your comments. For such a young guy like you I wish everything that you can go back to an enjoyible live. And you will do.

I know well that hanging around here in the forum and stay in bed half the day makes everything worser. Problems have to be managed in real live.

Time will come to adapt to the new situation. With titan prothesis, huge cock recovery or as an asexual senior with a bustour to a botanic garden, incl. coffee and Kirschtorte. No joke! In my age its really hard to found social circle as a lonly wolf forever. Woman liked that, that I wasnt like a little dog. But with the 5 alpha reductase the ability to stay alone was burned off my brain. So I cant stay aline anymore.

Actually, I could shout hallelujah that all the garbage caught me only at the advanced age of 59. But I just had an on-off relationship with this super woman and if we get together forever and we can sleep together under fin and then experience the crash in bed and she goes back to her slimy geriatric horrorfilmface widow comforter and I have to watch with amputated cock, that’s too hard. That fucks me down. This is cynical. This stuff I have to eat.

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#25

This is the f…cking shit I don’t respond to cialis neither to viagra since pfs. In my former live I was a great responder and used it to better performance in a sexclub for example…

#26

When did you stop finasteride?

#27

I was good responder to cialis at the beggining of pfs but now seems it doesen’t work… what can cause that?

#28

Most likely your ED got worse thats why it is not working anymore. The effectiveness of cialis stays always the same. Do you have erections sometimes?

#29

On the tuesday after easter this year. On fin I was able to have sex. After getting off the next day I have been totally impotent! Up to now. Only one hard boner for two days after starting bupoprion.

#30

I never responder to Cialis or Viagra with pfs. Without stimulation of the androgen receptors no erection. Maybe your ar were still responding in the beginning.
AR genes are over exprimated and AR are silenced in the brain and in the tissues so the hormon signal isn’t modulated in the cells. I dont know how this bad feedback functions.

#31

With pfs I can most masturbize a 60/70 % weak cock to 80%. I have no spontaneos errections, only two noctuals in a period I thought I recover sexuell. This was in the beginning of the Bupoprion 300 trail, when one day I had resisting boners for two days. I thought I quit the sexuall sites but I didnt.

#32

I hope you can adapt with your situation. For me it’s not that bad to live with ED even I can not fuck properly or even get hard to get in but I feel kind of a peace in my mind still. No feeling of depression like a few weeks ago.

But I am concerned about other symptoms than ED.

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#33

I run amok here on this forum. But deep inside I know I’m a severe case. My muscles melt away, whole body is going weak, Iimps are numb, unbearable fatigue, disconnected and brain is damaged.
To accept means, to accept to give up my house, my live and to enter a psychiatric nurse house and the mother of my child has to organize my estate.
I’m 189 m and 120 kg with bride shoulders.

#34

Dear Jonas, if you find a way to live with this condition and your body isn’t melting away, why you shouldn’t life a comfortable live for decades.

#35

A physchiatric house is the worst place you can go. An assessment then SSRis. You’re still relatively early on in this my friend. Just do what you’re doing and fight the fight. Review the previous threads around adapting to the changes as best as u can. Taking in scenery, new hobbies etc

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#37

friend，are you feel better？IM worry about your depression， this day we found more Chinese patients，what fuck ！there are too many people who get money and say we are swindlers，and try to make people take the shit，this unbelievable，im recovering in the mental，but I am still upset，the three months will coming，it a hard trip

#38

I still in bed. I have no fatigue anymore but I don’t have any drive to stand up for another fucking day.

#39

Another day with no fun for anything. Another fucking day full of pain, dark thoughts and lonyness.
Another day as a lobotomized Zombie.
Another day without sex.
No one cares about me.
Everything is gray, I’m interested in nothing anymore.
But I’m forced to life. Cannot commit suicide because of my child :children_crossing: getting depressed than too.
So I m a zombie, whom even not allowed to committing suicide.
I know I’m telling sad things only, but whom should I tell it in the world :earth_americas: outside.

#40

It’s fine to project sadness onto the forum, that’s what it’s for. As you say we’re the only ones who can really understand each other.

You’re going through hell, but things can improve. Everyone on this forum either has been or is still at absolute rock bottom, I know I myself have been in states I thought were completely irredeemable, but with time symptoms can improve naturally.

The immense workload that the PFS Network team are contributing to the advancement of our cause is really starting to gain momentum and there’s plenty of cause for optimism wrt the future of our condition. I know what you’re going through is beyond hard to cope with, but this isn’t necessarily permanent. Hang in there.

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