i dunno what the hell is going on. im no longer in control of my body in any capacity i feel. my body seems to change week to week, day to day even. one thing seems to get better while another thing falls apart.
here are notable changes since my last post
my skin has somewhat tightened back up. although not 100% its def better.
i NUKED my gut with probiotics after drinking so much coffee for months and having horrible hot burning acid reflux. i felt my guts start working again and was even able to isolate my lower abs while doing crunches at the gym . for months and months they felt like jelly.
i am sweating again. after YEARS of not being able too unless in a sauna for like an hour.
my veins have shrunk back to normal size after a couple years of them buldging. my arms would look like i was totally jacked but my veins were just swollen as fuck. when i would raise my arms they would dissapear.
ive put on more muscle when i couldnt for years. i have been lifting more but only because im actually able too now
i have been way way more irritable than usual. sleeping like shit and having zero energy. my brain chemestry is totally different it seems. im angry and depressed as hell. thinking bad thoughts constantly. no motivation.
my penis has shrunk too. after my veins went back to normal. my wang used to be really full and buldge out of my jeans. now its just average i guess (or back to normal). i can still get hard tho but it seems something was causing a vasodialation effect and now its gone.
i dunno dudes. im just shaking my head. im dumbfounded by this condition. it just doesnt make sense how this shit is even possible. i feel like a fucking mutant. mental and physical roller coaster. sorry for the rant but holy hell.
anyway here are things i feel have helped my skin situation
probiotics (although im going to lay off for a while as i feel they may be making my derealization a little worse)
working out even when i feel like death
cutting out anything inflammitory (coffee, even more from my diet, )
eating more meat (grass fed)
drinking tons of water
eating more vit c
fasting every few days
i for sure think the skin thing is tied to hormones. gut health play a major roll in regulating hormones and there is a noticeable improvement in that area. even after such a short span of time since my last post.
i have a big week long road trip at the end of the month im hoping my mood improves before then.
hope you all are doing okay and i think my skin tightening up a bit does signify there is hope for others too as well.