Scared please listen to my story and help

Hi so I have a rather unique story I think but would really appreciate if you took the time to listen/comment. So when I was young (15-16)I had extremely high levels of dht, this became a problem because it caused an inability to maintain an erection… When I was with a woman I would let out large amounts of “Pre-cum” and my penis would remain flaccid and never become hard. Then I looked up this condition and it is real I can post a link if you want, dht is linked to precum and basically this excessive dht caused my impotence, in The study the patients were given finasteride and symptoms were resolved. So being 17 years old I couldn’t ask my parents for finasteride, I also had tons of acne a symptom of High DHT which I think I caused from over masturbation in my young years. Anyways I couldn’t ask for finasteride so I tried saw palmetto and boom my symptoms were cured, spontaneous erections and no more insane precum… Then 5 years after taking 320mg saw palmetto I thought maybe I could stop the reliance on this supp. I stopped for 3 months and gained 45 pounds, had no libido, developed gyno, brain fog. So I started back on it and my weight improved and sexual ability, but still had gyno and brain fog and insomnia. So since then I’ve been on sp for roughly a year and idk what to do should I continue with it? It seems I completely crash otherwise if I come off, but don’t want to mess myself up more by continuing. I know this is different than most users but please this is very real and I’m scared

Thank you