Hi guys…
Here again…
In my last topic I was explaining how fucking bad I was again since a long and 100 recovering… I’ve recovered myself so many times and crashed again after some months all the times…
Last year I had a crash that lasted since july until october… And by the end of october again I was fucking good… This time though it has been just 3 months… And since 2 weeks again Im bad… This time is most of all sexual sides… Not able to get erections since 3 days… Fucking hell…
The thing guys is that I need some opinions about what I did…
Since I was so fucking amazing again and had meet this girl that has become my girlfriend, the night of new year I drunk and also I took a drug… Just small dose…put my finger one time, it covered the top of my finger and I licked it… The drug was MDMA… I regreat so much of it but the thing is that I was feeling cured since october so I wanted to enjoy… I have had this drug before too but never since PFS… But years ago I had cocaine once and I had PFS already… In that time I was recovered and dodnt feel anything bad from coke…
The thing is that all january i’ve been perfectly, aprt of february too… But since 2 weeks im bad and npw totally impotent again ;(…
So, I dnt know if the drug is the cause of this… Or is juat another fucking crash as others that i’ve had…
Im scared cause this time I dnt feel anxiety, heavybrainfog insomnia etc… As the other times… Now is just sexual and a bit of tiredness… So is different of my last crashes…
Im sorry guys I 've failed maybe all of you since I was recovered and took a fucking drug… Since all that we have suffered… But fuck I was feeling amazing and just did it… 
Some advice or opinions…?
Thx guys…